<p>Im a 2nd semester freshman and this semester so far has been crazy.</p>
<p>From the start, I felt like something was going to be different. The friends that I had made in the first semester were still pretty close and everything seemed fine, but something just wasnt right.</p>
<p>I began to fall for one of my best friends here and told her a few weeks in. She basically told me that she wanted to stay best friends and that she doesnt have the same feelings for me, at least right now. She was really nice about it, but of course, it still hurt.</p>
<p>I do have a close group of friends, closer than Ive ever been to people other than my family. However, this semester, two of them are very busy with a sorority, one is busy with a new girlfriend and being part of the student govt and another is in his room a lot playing video games. Another friend has been getting into doing drugs (other than marijuana), so I havent been exactly hanging out with him as much. I sometimes feel alone and Im not sure if its because of me or because of them. I still like them all a lot, theyre almost like family to me.</p>
<p>Ive tried to ask the one friend that is in his room a lot, and he doesnt go out to eat a good amount of the time. He also doesnt think to ask people to go places when he goes, which is sort of annoying since he goes and then tells me about it later. I invite him to things but he doesnt return the favor. We are close though when I do see him. I use to see him a lot more last semester but this semester, at least thus far, its been different.</p>
<p>I feel that I am alone a lot and Im feeling depressed. I have felt like this before, and the last time was when I was a junior in high school, and a bit in senior year. I dont go out usually because Ive had some bad experiences when Ive gone out during the first semester (I went to two parties, and both were busted by cops and people were arrested so that has also scared me off a bit) but not at all so far this semester. I have a job on Saturday nights which sucks, but Fridays arent much better since most of my friends are busy then with their different obligations and the one that is in his room is playing video games or whatnot, which kind of gets old too.</p>
<p>My living situation has been crazy. I live in an all Freshman building at a state school in NY. There has been so many crazy things that have happened that I am pretty much burned out. It is loud, without fail, every Friday and Saturday night, which I do not mind too much. However, it is also loud other nights as well and even when the RA on duty comes up, it still isnt quiet. Im talking midnight, 1am, and 2am on week nights. My floors bathroom gets destroyed every weekend by idiots who throw up on the toilets (not in), on the floors, in the sinks, and in the showers. Beer cans are scattered everywhere in there too along with other not-so-great surprises. This has been addressed by the RA on my floor but well see if it does anything... My floor has the lowest GPA in the entire college (there are approximately 6k students) out of all of the resident hall floors, even though our floor has 5 people (including me) on the deans list.</p>
<p>Its just been crazy and I need an outsiders opinion in order for me to look at this in an unbiased way. I feel that all of this stuff going on here is rationalized and is therefore normal, which is what Im starting to go by now. However, Im pretty sure it isnt because it isnt pleasant.</p>
<p>Im a very tolerant person, but this is getting out of hand. </p>
<p>Suggestions on any of this?</p>