<p>GO DIRECTLY TO THE COUNSELING CENTER RIGHT NOW! All of us posting here at CC are worried about you and keep you in our prayers, but we can’'t give you the professional help you clearly need. And the longer you wait, the harder it will be for you to take that first step, so your problems will only get worse. </p>
<p>Please, please seek help. And keep us posted on your progress, as we are all rooting for you.</p>