<p>Okay, we all know we are going crazy, so this is the official "freak-out" post where you can just babble about all your "i think i can get in, but i cant, i mean, i can..."</p>
<p>Me: I am just going crazy right now, because I have been saying that Stanford is not my first choice.. but it is, i just dont want to say that so if i dont get in, then I dont have anything i've lost. I really dont know if i can get in... technically i meet their stats, but so does the rest of the world, and what if i go there and people are just 1000 times smarter than I? If i get rejected, i really feel like i've wasted so much time thinking about it. ahhh dec 15 come faster!!!!!</p>
<p>Well, for me, I don't even know if I qualify for my top (EA) school (Not Stanford, but MIT, but I figure it's pretty much the same feelings either school. Of course if you WANT me to go away....). I don't even know if I qualify for Stanford. It's really really a long shot... or is it?! Perhaps I have a warped sense of my own abilities. </p>
<p>I think a deferral would make me happy, because then I know I at least qualify. Then I would be able to trust that my essay/personality/stats can win the day for me.</p>
<p>Stanford is definitely my first choice. To be honest, I don't even really have a second. I can't really decide on my expectations -- I'm one of the most qualified at my school, and I think I came through really well in my recs and essays, but I don't look as good on paper as ANYONE on here. And most of the others from my school are legacies. It's just really hard to deal with because it has taken me this long to realize just how much I want it, and I'm really not prepared for the reality of how slim my chances really are. If I were to get in - I honestly can't think of anything I want more, but the fact is that I could get rejected and no one would be really too surprised.</p>
<p>As much as I keep professing that "I'm sooooo over it" to friends, family, etc. I'M NOT! I really want to go! But I know who I am, and I don't have much of a chance. It's scary I have no clue where I'm going to be next year or even 3 months from now (I have this other thing...ahhh stress!!!). You can't help but grow attached to Stanford and while I probably won't cry if I don't get in, I'll feel awful. At the end of Oct. I couldn't picture a letter from them with good or bad news, and now I can't either and it's like days away. I'm confused and I gots homework!!!</p>
<p>No anxiety. I'm just assuming I didn't get in, and I'm getting excited about other schools. If I DO get in, I will erase memories of other schools, and burn all pending applications. Or just drag them into the Windows recycle bin.</p>
<p>I am not sure that I can make it into Stanford EA and after all the work I did. I hope that I do stand a chance though... Most likely, I'll call them at 6:30 a.m. on December 15th and ask them if I got in or not. And if they ask me if I have gotten their mail yet, I'll just say no. Then, when they tell me to wait, I'll say I CAN'T!!! Need to know now!!! And then most likely they'll hang up on me and I'll just call them again. Honestly, i talked to Stanford so many times over my application with question that they probably know me by now :-/ Anyway, that didn't make sense. I have Decathlon to do. Peace Out! I just needed to get that off my chest. NEED TO KNOW NOW!!! By the way, if I do get in to Stanford, if any of you are in Colorado, I'll be skydiving in the nude. So, yeah... Close your eyes okay?</p>
<p>I just can't stop thinking about Stanford! This has been the longest week of my life. I just keep imagining what it would feel like to get in, but then I remember how hard it is and how likely it is that I'll get deferred/rejected. And it's just so sad because I feel like I worked as hard as I could possibly have worked and to not get in is just really sad. And I've been telling everyone that Stanford's my top choice since forever, so it'll just be so disappointing, and I keep telling myself that I'll be okay, but I don't think I will! Whew that did feel nice!</p>
<p>i know i may be very out of place amongst die hards here, and just like everyone else i love stanford and am dying to know what happens this week, but is anyone having second doubts, or wondering if it really is the place for them? maybe it's because i'm from the east coast and wary of living so far away in such a different place, or because all the other schools i'm applying to are on the east coast, or because my parents went there and stanford seems to have been ingrained in my blood since birth - but i don't know, i'm so confused, stressed and i don't know.... does anyone else feel something like this?</p>
<p>It is my absolute number 1 choice. If I could pick between any other college including HYPM and Oxbridge, I would still choose Stanford in a heartbeat. Now the hard part is getting in... I highly doubt I will, but I still hope I will.</p>