<p>Okay, so I go to HS online. I went to a regular HS until halfway through grade 9. I ride horses and a professional invited me to be a working student with him traveling the circuit from Florida to Canada. I left HS, homeschooling for a couple months with the intention of returning, but then said professional invited me to continue working with him and I accepted. Other riders recommended an online HS to me. I signed up around April 2008 to finish my last quarter with them.</p>
<p>I've had issues with time management in the program since I started, mostly because there are no deadlines or pacing tools other than the final 'end of enrollment' date. I had to get an extension from grade 9, which pushed my classes through the summer. I didn't finish Spanish 2 that year and had to retake it in grade 10. Then in grade 10 I had to get an extension again, which pushed my classes through the winter when I should have been in grade 11. I still couldn't finish Chem w/ lab, and one of my English classes. I had to retake those 2 classes in grade 11, which I didn't start until February of this year. This year has been exceptionally hard on me for personal reasons outside of schoolwork, which stresses me out and makes it harder for me to do schoolwork. And not doing schoolwork stresses me out and makes it increasingly harder- a vicious cycle. </p>
<p>So right now, my enrollment has ended for grade 11, when I should be in grade 12. I had to drop my Spanish course because I couldn't complete it in time. I also have to retake a semester of English because I couldn't finish it on time. I also have to get extensions for my math course and my Chem course. I've been pushing all these courses onto my Senior enrollment. It was going to be an intense course load but I was fully prepared to take it on so I could go to college in Fall 2011. </p>
<p>However, despite the fact that my counselor told me that I could take the planned necessary courses, she came back to me yesterday and told me it was over the maximum credit load. My only option is to take an extra semester, and I will not be able to apply for Fall 2011. </p>
<p>I'm not even sure if I posted this in the right place. I don't know if anybody has anything useful to tell me but I definitely needed to vent. I feel like my life is over. I feel like such a failure, like I've let myself and everybody down. I feel so much like giving up. I've already been battling some intense self confidence issues and what I can only describe as depressed feelings. I've wanted help but there's nobody I trust enough to ask, and now I think people would just say I'm using it as an out or not take me seriously. </p>
<p>So mental breakdown aside, I'm not really sure what to do. How much do things change for me if I go to school in Spring 2012 instead of Fall 2011? Am I better off to go in Fall 2012? I don't want to miss out on the "full" college experience but it seems like I've already shot myself in the foot. </p>
<p>Sorry that was so long-winded!</p>