Before you go back - anywhere - you need to have a talk with yourself about why you failed/dropped so many courses. If it truly is because of the deaths of so many family members (and I believe it certainly could be due to this) then it might be realistic to ask yourself if you are ready to go back. I don’t want to accuse you of hiding behind excuses, but I have mentored/advised so many people in my volunteer work who are quick to make excuses, then they convince themselves that they have an excuse and should be given special privileges - when in reality they probably weren’t all that serious about their education to begin with. I don’t want to project any of the experiences of some of my - clients - on you.
Many times, a person needs to step back from the situation. A student flunks out because she doesn’t have a reliable transportation, or because she likes to party instead of doing her homework. Or homework is done with minimal effort and she doesn’t master the material, then is surprised that her professor is just mean and has it out for her.
I feel bad for your situation - and I know how some people have much harder things to overcome than others.
I hope you don’t take this as a personal attack - but as a legit wake-up call. Pretend you are the college dean who had to expel you - and try to understand how they did what they had to do, because the school has to have higher standards, else their degrees mean nothing. Sometimes pretending you are on the other side helps you to understand what they see,
I am hopeful for a positive outcome, even if it takes time.