I have to agree with the other parents who have given you advice about getting a job to pay off your loans. The simple act that you have had that many family deaths in such a short period of time is very over whelming. Perhaps the medical field is just not the best job fit for you. If you were really seriously into it, it would be your passion and it would come easily. Taking a break and doing some personal insight to what you really like/ want is by far more valuable in the long run. This is your life and you should be very happy and comfortable about your choice. The time spent away from school will help you to get a better perspective on the real world, and even help you to grow up. Good luck to you.