I am known to be reserved and anxious, I think it’s in my DNA. My job requires having presentations in front of large crowds, the dept is meant to be run my 2 people but the person I was hired alongside with quit early on. I’m in my fourth month, I work in higher ed (career services). Today we are presenting to the new batch of students, the person in FA was asking if I was ready to present. She’s played around with me before and told me that I would eventually not need flash cards. I was talking about my stage fright and when I told her I would eventually not need flash cards hopefully, she pretty much nodded in agreement and I don’t remember what she said. I think she agreed with me.
And I asked jokingly if I was that bad and she said last presentation my voice cracked and I seemed nervous. The presentation before the last one, she said I did good and I reminded her of her giving me that feedback. And she said when I did good I was making eye contact more but that last time I wasn’t as much. And she said yes that time I didn’t seem nervous. I playfully said that boss said I was doing fine now I’m concerned and she said the boss is trying to encourage character development.
I’m just so suspicious. Am I being too sensitive or is she just being direct? I really don’t have the energy to deal with potential drama.