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Elaborate on that more por favor. I have a tendency to think beyond what the normal person thinks about. Why is it that my grades would limit my potential? Now, I do understand my grades are mediocre at best, but now what are my options in your opinion? Sure, I may sound idealistic, may be even delusional, but why do I think I have any chance at all? In this society run by numbers and rankings, I thought that, may be, college would be the sanctuary from all of that. Hence, my goal of becoming a research scientist and professor. I do not want my knowledge being "used" by a corporation, but rather open to the public. I thought someone in the system would understand humanity. I do not want to be a mere cog in a machine driven by men. I saw school as this "machine". May be I am insane, who knows, may be all of you are insane and I am the only sane one. Who knows. What kept me in the school system was that drive for knowledge; I never cared for tests, grades or even complements. I gauge my performance against a standard set by myself, not others. Sure, may be this standard is too high even for me to reach, but I have lived by the words "all limits are self imposed". Now, what is a college admission officer going to tell the kid who wants to revolutionize the world by being the unconventional innovator? That his grades were not good enough? Sure, may be I will get a whole bunch of rejection letters from some big name schools. May be even the lesser known schools. Do I expect schools to accept me out of pity? No. I merely want to make a statement that genius does not come in forms of 4.0+ GPAs or 2400 SATs, but from the hearts and ambitions of men. </p>
<p>That was the reason why I did not want to apply to UCs, I thought private schools will look past my mediocre grades and look truly what my intentions and goals are in life. I wanted college to be the catalyst that will change me into a man and start making those changes. Now, it may sound like I am blabbing nonsense, but I have a very clear picture in my head for my goals. May be I will end up in history books as an idealist that failed to put his policies into action like Woodrow Wilson. Or may be as a man who enforced his policies to a gross proportion like Adolf Hitler. But I know at the end of the day that I pushed to embrace humanity and I did not let circumstances get in the way.
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<p>Am I insane?
Click on the blue arrow if you want to see the whole thread.</p>
<p>Discuss.</p>
<p>Any one even read this?</p>
<p>tl;dr</p>
<p>I think you may be paranoid.</p>
<p>I read it, and while you did seem a little crazy with your ramblings, you made a good point.</p>
<p>But, I always have a question with people who say they’re geniuses, yet don’t make good grades. Why not? Why not make good grades if you have the ability to? You have to be in school anyway, why waste your time by not doing what your assigned to do?
I make really good grades, but I don’t consider myself a genius at all. That’s why whenever I hear people say “Oh, I’m great at everything, I know this.” It always kinda bothers me that if they know it all, they can’t just go ahead and do it. I don’t know how they can settle for grades that aren’t reflective of their abilities. But whatever, that’s just me, and I’m making my own crazy ramblings.</p>
<p>Back on topic though, I do agree that we’ve gotten to focused on numbers when it comes to school. It’s not that much about how smart you are, but how well you can do a good job on the assignments that are handed to you. But I think that if you wanted to go to a UC, then you might as well have applied, just because they’re public schools doesn’t mean they’re going to deny you right off the bat because of mediocre grades, unless your grades are really that bad, then that would kinda go back to my rambling of why didn’t you just try a little more?
and by the way, this isn’t talking about you, I just kinda went off topic a little based on some of the things I read in your essay.</p>
<p>I am a full blown INTJ. [INTJ</a> - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia](<a href=“http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/INTJ]INTJ”>Myers–Briggs Type Indicator - Wikipedia) You can read about it here. It has been prominent ever since I was in elementary. I remember, I really never had any friends. All I would do is talk to adults all the time. I would always ask questions and I remember everyone would do the whole “not again” sigh and groans every time I raised my hand. Actually, that happens to me still sometimes. It gets to the point that the teacher would not call on me at all until the very end. So, that is why I didn’t even bother raising my hand. May be that has lead to my down fall. My insecurities holding me back. </p>
<p>Also, another thing is that I do not perform well in an institutionalized environment. That is prominent in the tests and repetitive homework assignments. I was not joking when I said I wished that I was self taught at home. </p>
<p>“INTJs apply (often ruthlessly) the criterion “Does it work?” to everything from their own research efforts to the prevailing social norms. This in turn produces an unusual independence of mind, freeing the INTJ from the constraints of authority, convention, or sentiment for its own sake … INTJs are known as the “Systems Builders” of the types, perhaps in part because they possess the unusual trait combination of imagination and reliability. Whatever system an INTJ happens to be working on is for them the equivalent of a moral cause to an INFJ; both perfectionism and disregard for authority may come into play … Personal relationships, particularly romantic ones, can be the INTJ’s Achilles heel … This happens in part because many INTJs do not readily grasp the social rituals … Perhaps the most fundamental problem, however, is that INTJs really want people to make sense.”</p>
<p>dude its maybe not may be</p>
<p>Personality tests are kind of stupid.</p>