<p>I just realized that I basically went through my whole high school year without one dependable close friend.</p>
<p>I have one girl who is very very nice..we go to the beach together etc, but she's a social person. she's friends with everyone. </p>
<p>another guy who i hang out with in school all the time, but i dont trust him o_O. im new to the school and he was first at the top of the school until i came. once he found out that my gpa, etc etc was higher than his he became friends with me. I saw things that he wrote on someone else profile back in the beginning of the school..in which he said "ohh she's nothing to worry about. im going to beat her." :/ i feel like he's in constant competition with me and thats the only reason he's my friend</p>
<p>the next girl is a friend of mine but she's such a people pleaser and hypocritical. the vegan who drinks cow milk o_O. and she also competes with me and gets obviously mad when i get a higher grade on an assignment than her. :( i try to be her friend but like she's always like "you're lucky you have everything..you're lucky you're this, you're that" :(</p>
<p><em>sigh</em> i want to make frriends, iwant to have close relationships but its so hard for me.
on top of that, i live in a community where the people are mostly the thug, "gangbanger" type. anyone else feel like this?</p>
<p>But yea I dont "hang out". I rarely go to the movies with friends. Over the weekend, I usually go to my grandmothers house or sleep. I dont talk on the phone with friends. Basically...outside of school, I dont speak to anyone my age o_O</p>
<p>^ really? idkk maybe im just not like most teens. I dont get any fulfillment from clubbing or partying. i prefer to spend my friday nights reading a book, newly bought book or watching a good documentary online.
im boring…but whatever…</p>
<p>Yeah, don’t worry, you’re not alone. I haven’t had a real friend, one that I can talk to outside of school, since maybe 8th grade. It sucks. Although I’m kind of used to it by now.
I really need to make some friends in college.</p>
<p>I don’t exactly feel friendless–I have two or three close friends (used to be three or four…long story) and a few friendly acquaintances, plus two cousins that I talk to frequently–but it does seem weird that I go out way less than other people. I’ve never even been to a “party” party (the tons-of-people-dancing and doing semi-illegal things kind, as opposed to a birthday gathering with mini-golf or something). Also, my mother’s really random and strict; I’m not really allowed to invite people over, and I’ve never had a birthday party (not that I know enough people well to invite anyway).
Even around my close friends, I’m not 100% myself; I feel comfortable around them (which is saying a lot, because I’m anxious/socially awkward), but I don’t spend enough time with them outside of school to show them how extremely quirky I am (which is how I act around my cousins, whom I see all the time).
One thing that concerns me a bit is that while some of my best friends as a kid were guys, I haven’t had a close, platonic guy friend since 3rd grade (unless you count a cousin). I hope that’s not too abnormal.
Another thing–though I’m going semi-off topic now–whenever I meet people, they are somehow automatically able to deduce that I’m a quiet person. And they’ll tell me that, as if I didn’t already know that about myself or am not already trying to <em>not</em> be so introverted. Then when something happens that puts me in a positive light (my English teacher praises my essay and someone overhears, etc.) they’ll be all like, “Wow, I didn’t know you were ___ (smart, liked writing, etc.)” as if it was unbelievable that I had a personality or talent. X_x [/rant, thanks for listening]</p>
<p>On a slightly different note, there’s a girl at my school who sits alone at lunch in the library every day (since freshman year), and she’s never with anyone when I pass her in the hallway. My friend decided to ask her to come sit with us, but she said no…I wonder if she actually likes being alone, or if we came off as too patronizing or something.</p>
<p>I have a twin sister, and we are really close, so I’ve never felt the need to have a best friend. Which is probably why I have 11 friends I actually hang out with outside of school, and a bunch of other just friends.</p>
<p>I’m also a really lonely person. But I’m used to it since I don’t prefer to be social in the modern sense anyways. It’s sad that 2 of my closest friends live far away and 1 close friend at my school is even less social than me (she never leaves her house except when her parents ask her to go with them to work or something). I recently made 1 or 2 closer friends but still I don’t hang out. For some reason I’m just scared of being social, even then part of me wants to. But being lonely is not as terrible to me as it would be to other people.</p>
<p>I have a lot of friends but sometimes I feel friendless because…I feel like they can be so fake sometimes I’ve only had 2 or 3 really, really good friends in my life (still friends with them). But it sucks because all of my best & close friends live overseas and I’m stuck with the fake ones over here…but they’re more “fun” if you know what I mean…but I can’t seem to connect with them too well…lol. Plus, half of the time I feel like I need to initiate all the hanging out I need to become better at telling who’s genuinely my friend or just using me.</p>
<p>^ same here! My school is huge and I made most of my friends and got to know many people through my ECs It’s easier I suppose since you’ll probably have similar interests. There’s not too much time available to be socializing during class.</p>
<p>Hmmm. I have friends in school and stuff, most of my friends come from that. But I never hang out with people outside of school, except for one person who I happen to be close with & she lives a 3 minute walk away, in the same subdivision.</p>
<p>People invite me to parties & outings, but I usually don’t go because I’m anti-social. I just realized how sad I am, lol. I’m afraid of being awkward.</p>
<p>I’ve never been to a typical high school party, though, with alcohol and <em>dirty dancing</em>.</p>
idkk maybe im just not like most teens. I dont get any fulfillment from clubbing or partying. i prefer to spend my friday nights reading a book, newly bought book or watching a good documentary online.
I’ve only had 2 or 3 really, really good friends in my life (still friends with them). But it sucks because all of my best & close friends live overseas and I’m stuck with the fake ones over here…but they’re more “fun” if you know what I mean…but I can’t seem to connect with them too well…lol. Plus, half of the time I feel like I need to initiate all the hanging out 
I need to become better at telling who’s genuinely my friend or just using me.</p>
It’s easier I suppose since you’ll probably have similar interests. There’s not too much time available to be socializing during class.</p>