<p>I feel you. </p>
<p>The best lesson I learned this year is that as long as I can legitimately say I put my best effort then there’s no reason to be unsatisfied. You’ve clearly exhausted all resources and if you’re working as hard as you can then you shouldnt be too hard on yourself. </p>
<p>That said, don’t ever do swartwood again. I remember trying that out first quarter. I was so exhausted from that 4 hour information overload session that I did terribly on the midterm. I would only recommend them if you are completely lost in the subject, like you either never been to lecture or you’re just braindead the whole time. Reteaching the whole course is not the best method of review -you gotta do problems.
Also, try out covel tutoring. They only meet once a week (less if your tutor is a lame-o). The point Im getting at is that you could be too reliant on tutoring since I know AAP meets more than once a week.
From now on, try independently studying. Learn the material by reading the book, going online to get a different perspective, etc. Do the problems AFTER reading the material so you can have a better grasp. The professors didn’t learn from the course textbook, they used a variety of textbooks and other materials to master the subject and they expect you to do the same if you want an amazing grade. If you’re doing it right, you should only need to go to TA office hours up to about 4 times within the whole quarter.</p>
<p>Take the summer to unwind. Relax.
There’s nothing you can do about first year anymore - keep going. </p>
<p>[insert “Hang in there, tiger” motivation poster here]</p>