Thank you so much for that @PickOne1
Really needed that 
http://talk.collegeconfidential.com/high-school-life/1778004-messed-up-9th-grade.html#latest
^^ Here, thats a bit about me, to clear your doubts
See, the thing is, i’d love to see myself as a bright young lady haha, but the circumstances right now don’t prove that, and no one in my life right now would agree to that.
My parents told me that if I did good in this Calc, then there would be a reason to do so bad in my finals, but I’m doing bad in both & the only person left to blame is myself.
I’ve gotten in such a bad mental state this year, and I’m pretty sure i could of got flying colors this year, but I just didn’t.
I was distracted.
And i’m going to do anything in my willpower to change that. But it’s gonna be hard, with the hole I dug myself this year.