@wiscodreamer Thank you for such an honest and personal response. I perhaps think that I may have come across that I was looking to play the role of a martyr when really that isn’t my intention whatsoever. I was looking to prove strength and resilience albeit my circumstances rather than begging for pity and essentially saying “Oh please accept me! I’m horribly sad and my anxiety is distracting and crippling!” In my freshman admissions essay I talked about anxiety like an ex and how it prevented me from doing a lot of things but once I was able to ‘break up with it’ I was able to continue my life with clarity and focus on bettering myself, etc. We’ll see which path I decide to take with my spring 2020 essay.
I wish you the best of luck in your final decision! 
Keep up the good work and you got this!