<p>For me the military does pose a tough question.</p>
<p>You see, I would honestly never serve in the military. I would rather sit in a jail cell then kill or help kill. Even if you aren't doing the killing directly, you indirectly encourage it all. I'm not exactly a pacifist. Truly, I don't know what I am. It just all seems so illogical and pathetic. The big, powerful guys fight amongst one another and send there little followers to do the dirty work.</p>
<p>One thing I find sad is that people may go in when they are 18-20 or whatever, before they even have developed a solid moral base and so forth. Honestly, unless you just take every word your parents give you and decide to never look at other ideas, you still have a lot of growing to do. How can someone at that stage of life make up their mind if they are justified in killing for the country's sake. Uhhh. I know it is a mess. It's one of those situations that just depresses me thinking about it, and yet I can't find a practical solution.</p>
<p>Not to be pessimistic, but something I'm learnign is there is always $hit in the world. Classrooms can be microcosims of the world. Gosh, today I was walking to my english class and as I entered the class I saw a 8th grade kid in the hall slap the books out of this other kid's hands. The kid who lost his book is really scrawny, lives in the trailer park, and yes can be mean. But he was trained to. Ahhh it just makes me sad and that I can't change it. </p>
<p>About the military again. I have trouble because I really like America and so forth but I am not very patriotic. My parents are not pacifists but they have been against the iraq war from the get-go. I didn't make my mind up until a bit later- and it is still not completely settled. But until I see decent justification I lean against war. ANyway, there is this guy in my class whose dad was in iraq for a while and his whole family is pretty into the military. Anyway, I found out earlier this year that he "hates" me. And you know why? Because my parents protested the war in d.c. He seriously goes out of his way to make me feel like crap here and there and wow it is just sad. I can't stand it. I wish he could understand that you can still support troops by wanting them to come home. Ahhh. The other day in world lit he made the comment (directed at me no doubt) that if he ever saw someone protesting on the road, he would run them over. </p>
<p>If anything, he more turns me away from the military and war. He is so narrow-minded and caught up ughh it is crazy. He says he hates everyone who is french. He is so hating and ughh it depresses me.</p>
<p>Anyway, as for military... Personally, at this point I would never serve. It feels wrong to me personally. That also means I don't believe in forcing others. Ughh it is a mess. I guess I take the easy way, by knowing I will never have to serve.</p>