((Hugs.)) Where you go to school will not define who you are. Your job will not define who you are. Your parents will not define who you are. Unfortunately, if they are immigrants, these top colleges are the only schools they’ve heard of while they were overseas. And they believe (because someone told them) that going to a top college will spare their child from ever being poor. So in a sick and twisted way, they’re trying to show you love. I know… ugh!
That toxic behavior (e.g. yelling, comparing, withholding praise) is cultural / something people pass down from one generation to the next. It’s difficult for your parents to say, “I love you,” or “Good job,” when they’ve never heard it from their parents. You can’t choose how they’ll act, and you shouldn’t wait for an attaboy/attagirl. Their emotional bucket is so empty, there is nothing to give. But you can choose how you respond. It will take many many tries but if you sincerely do and say these for a while, you could lead them down a different path (it’s almost like you’re having to parent them emotionally, and fill their bucket). A year from now, they might even reciprocate and say “I love you.”
You can choose to love on them:
Mom/Dad, let me do the dishes. I love you.
Mom/Dad, don't forget the umbrella... it's supposed to rain today. I love you. (You could even leave a note.)
Mom/Dad... You look nice. Let me take a selfie with you. (click.) I'll text this photo to you. I love you.
You can choose to get to know them:
Mom/Dad... When you were a kid, what did you do with your friends?
Mom/Dad... Who is your favorite athlete / singer? / what is your favorite...?
You can choose to appreciate them:
Mom/Dad, that meal was so good. Thank you; I appreciate you.
Mom/Dad... You're funny. I'm going to write that down so I don't forget what you said.
Mom/Dad... it must've been scary moving to another country. Thank you for all your sacrifice. I love you and I'm so proud of you.
And when you feel angry or sad, I want you to breathe… and I hope you remember… you are good… and you are more than enough… because God loves you and created you, and God says you are a masterpiece (Ephesians 2:10).