I’m currently a junior in high school right now, and I honestly have no idea how to handle my current situation. The basic makeup is this: I need to get into a decent college next year such as CMU or UMich, but I’m struggling to keep my GPA above a 4.6. I need to do everything I can to raise my numbers, so I’ve been unbelievably stressed with the 7 AP Classes I have. While a 4.6 GPA may seem adequate for a school like CMU, keep in mind that I’m an Asian Male with a fairly competitive high school, and many kids with high 4.7’s didn’t even make it into CMU this year.
AP Tests are in about a week and a half, and I need to do everything in my power to ensure that I get all 5’s on the seven AP tests I’m taking, however, I’m currently not very prepared for some of them. I have a decent outline of what I need to do to efficiently study for them to get good scores.
While executing this plan would be very stressful, I think it would work. The problem is, my father is currently heavily impeding from executing my plan, as he is forcing me to draft a really inefficient preparation schedule that involves doing a full length test everyday on top of all my schoolwork, which would honestly push me to all-nighters on some nights. I’ve tried explaining to him why his system wouldn’t be as efficient or beneficial, and all he says is that I have no right to talk because I’ve been getting bad grades this entire year and I just need to shut up and respect him because he’s paying for my college tuition. Honestly I feel so frustrated that I can’t even give him a little bit of apathy or attitude without his ego getting extremely sensitive and screaming at me about how I need to treat him with respect because he’s sponsoring me. This has been happening on several nights, and these nights honestly make me feel horrible as after the argument I cannot focus or concentrate for around an hour because I’m so infuriated and emotionally distraught, and then on top of all of this I have to finish the amount of schoolwork I still have left for the next day and all the studying I have. Not only that, in my friend group in general consisting of about 12 kids, I’ve talked to all of them and their parents are extremely understanding of their stress and tend to leave them alone and let them figure out things for themselves, which just builds on my frustration.
How do I handle all this stress of having to do well on 7 AP’s plus all my homework and schoolwork and studying for school tests and quizzes on top of having a semi-oppressive dad who significantly stunts my productivity? Honestly at times I just want to give up at this point…
