<p>So this isn't your normal oh I'm doing Biology because my parent wants me to do it and I don't like it. I'm doing my first semester of Biology but am a Senior student. I completed 106 credits from the business school at Rutgers in Newark. I was dismissed with a 2.97 GPA because I failed Stats Methods 4x. In the beginning, I was a good student in high school. I graduated with 3.52 GPA and went to a county college to major in business administration. </p>
<p>I wanted to do art and/or fashion because it was something I was interested in. </p>
<p>But I think it was for the glittery image it portrayed even though I was really good according to the staff at he Art Talented program I was doing. I was avidly researching schools and all that stuff, as well as attended the National Portfolio Day event. Never had bad reps about my portfolio. Drawing skills superb and still are according to others. My mother didn't want me to do fashion. My other family members were either concerned or they just treated me as if I was stupid because I wanted to do something pertaining to art. </p>
<p>However, I did not want to do anything in the medical field. My mother wanted me to, but I didn't because of the science classes. I wasn't good in science in high school. I refused to do College Bio because I thought it would be difficult so I did regular Bio. I did College Chem but ended up with a C and Physics HNRS but ended up with a D. I did AP US History and all those advanced courses in high school. But because I was convinced I wanted to do art/fashion, I don't think I cared much about them. </p>
<p>So I'm doing Bio now because I decided to listen to my mom. And I guess I wanted to be like my brother, who is like a genius. He was the one who wasn't doing well before during high school, but is now awesome in science and math while I'm basically flunking. I'm struggling in my science courses in my frist semester. The only good thing is that I had an A in my Calc exam beut thats only bcause I had basic calc for my AS degree in Business admin.</p>
<p>I'm not sure if this is right because I'm literally struggling. Talking about this with my mom is other of the question. I lie to her about classes because I don't want her to worry. She always says that I should get As. But obviously thats not gonna happen at this point. I'm so fed up that I want to hide somewhere and never come out. I'm scared that I will lose her approval. With my brother she's like this fan girl, but with me its a whole different matter. But I want that approval from her. One time she was crying and saying that she wants all of her kids to be successful. It scares me of what she'll say when she finds out that I'm not sure abotu this Bio major thing......</p>