<p>Hey everyone, I haven't posted here in awhile. I used to be one of those freshman posters who whined about how lame his colllege experience was. Well, things have definetly DRASTICALLY improved since my first semester 2 years ago. I transferred into my first choice school, reconnected with some good friends from high school, joined a couple clubs, did some volunteer work, landed a great summer internship, etc.</p>
<p>So I should be satisfied, right? </p>
<p>I'm a Junior this year, and it's my first time living in the dorm. My first year I was at community college and last year I commuted. I know it's unusual, but I wanted to do it so I wouldn't graduate without having the experience at least once. </p>
<p>My issue is, for some reason I can't but always help feeling like I'm missing out on some of the best moments of college, and it's really killing me. I just feel like no matter what I do, I just can't seem to make close friends. My roommate and suitemates get along great, I often go out to dinner with them and so on, but they've all known each other for years and I always feel like a 3rd wheel when I'm with their friend group. My two closest friends are commuters, so between classes I rarely get to see them.</p>
<p>And even during my best experiences here, I struggle to just let loose, put my guard down, and have a good time. I think part of the reason is that I come from such a different background than most of the students here. I grew up going to small, strict Christian private schools and now I'm attending a major state school. Alot of the kids here are your typical, rich suburban kids and then you have a mix of everything else. People are pretty clique-ish and it feels often like everyone has somebody they're hanging out with at all times, and I just feel like I'm alone alot of the time.</p>
<p>And I'm not a stud or anything, but I consider myself to be a decently attractive guy. I lift weights, I play some basketball, I'm tall, good hygiene lol. Yet I feel like even the awkward, geeky dudes have better weekends and talk to more girls than I do, and I'm just wondering to myself what am I doing wrong? This past weekend I literally sat in my room and watched Netflix while my roommates were invited to a party. I'm not opposed to partying or drinking necessarily, but I'm just not into the whole hooking up thing and getting blacked out wasted, because its just not something I've ever grew up around. So I often feel out of place at parties and end up avoiding them altogether.</p>
<p>What can I do to make more friends and have a better time? I only have a short time left here, and I don't want to graduate having been underwhelmed by my college experience. I really anticipated this semester being the best one yet, but a few weeks in, I'm already feeling drained and slowly sinking into a depressive state, which even worse, is affecting my study habits.</p>
<p>Any advice would really help. Thanks.</p>