**Brown Class of 2020 RD applicant thread**

I’m trying to remind myself that I have virtually no chance and that I shouldn’t get my hopes up, but it gets harder as the deadline nears…

@VaishS I wouldn’t assume that everyone who gets accepted to PLME gets an LL. Last year PLME accepted 90 students, and they only offer a total of 100-200 LLs in total - they wouldn’t use up half/all their likely letters just for the folks accepted to PLME

I just came across this thread. I got an LL over the weekend! Super excited. Is anyone attending a day on college hill?

I applied PLME, but I didn’t receive a LL. Yay! YAAY!

I really need to get off this website before my confidence plummets to an all-time low.

@schroscat right?!?

Me: “Oh hey, look at this super helpful website with information and other people who understand what I’m going through.”

Five months later.

Me: “EVERYONE IS SMARTER THAN I AM AND I AM THE ONLY PERSON WITHOUT A LL AND I WILL PROBABLY NEVER GO TO COLLEGE BECAUSE I SUCK AT LIFE.”

@mjstewart1224 literally me all the time

Me, in November: “Hey, look! People stressing, I’ll join!”

Me, in December: “PEOPLE ARE TOO SMART. WHY DID I THINK I WAS INTELLIGENT? I AM DEFINITELY NOT!!!”

Me, in January: “I have banned myself from CC. No more.”

Me, in February: “One peek won’t hurt!!”

Me, now: “Damn it, someone replied to me, now I’m OBLIGATED to log on!” spends two hours stalking every school I applied to

@schroscat Get off cc thx. Jk

@tuty143 No, mom, I will not!

I’ve been trying to just stick to a couple threads in the HS life forum that aren’t certain school related but oh, the temptation is strong…

@wonderlanddd I honestly kept away from cc for so long and was doing so well! and then i came back in February and about died

@tuty143 I only made mine in December so I haven’t had as long, but it’s quickly gone from “oh everyone is panicking together, this will help my anxiety” to “Oh my god there are so many things I didn’t do or think about and I should’ve applied to these schools and not these and none of it matters because everyone here has won major research awards and I have no chance”
ugh

@wonderlanddd honestly i felt the same before I got my LL. Rn I feel so dumb for panicking so much. I bet you’ll feel the same by next fall

@tuty143 Hopefully, right? haha. Thanks, though.

I have stalked all my schools so thoroughly that today I was reading a thread and panicking about the fact that someone mentioned that this particular school doesn’t post decisions online, they do it only by mail.

The thread was from 10 years ago.

I’ve officially run out of valid material to read. So now I just hang out with you all and count down the days.

I have a countdown on my phone, a countdown in one of my classrooms, and a countdown in every single conversation I’ve had.

A month or two ago I joked to some people that I might as well get “74 days” (that was the countdown at the time) tattooed into my forehead…seeing the looks on their faces is when realized that this had become an unhealthy obsession lol

I think I joked once that I’m going to get “+c” tattooed on my wrist. Though that has nothing to do with Brown…

@schroscat indefinite integration is no joke