<p>im a freshman at my dream school which i worked so hard to get in to... i met my bf online through my college...and were still together almost 8 month later..thats not the problem...deep down inside ive had building anxiety and its affecting life and grades... right now im going to pass the semester w/ 2 B's 2 C's and a W. My parents know something is wrong, but its hard when you are thousands of miles away from your parents. I have ADHD NVLD anxiety and the anxiety has caused clear anger issues like furious anger issues. I've hurt peoples feelings and i feel bad. My only rock here is my bf and my counselor at the school but lately ive lost hope in her also. Ive never been diagnosed w/ anxiety but ive been told i CLEARLY have it. I love my school but it doesnt offer what i want too take..so im also at a rough patch w/ that b/c its a good fit. The program for LD/ADHD is top notch</p>
<p>"Ive never been diagnosed w/ anxiety but ive been told i CLEARLY have it"</p>
<p>I don't get that. If your provider told you you "clearly have it", she should have named a specific anxiety disorder. Otherwise to "have anxiety" is like having a "cough". It doesn't tell you a lot. I hope you've told your counselor you've "lost hope" in her, so she can help you take it from there.Thats where you should start.</p>
<p>If you love your school, and it doesn't have the program that you want, you have two choices:
1) Complete as many of your basic courses there as possible while you are continuing to master the skills that will help you manage your LDs when you are finally out in the "real world", and then transfer to a school that has that specific program.
or
2) Find a program that you can be happy with at your current school so that you can spend all four years there.</p>
<p>While I may suspect that for you, being at a good fit school is ultimately more important than studying a particular major, only you can really decide that. When you are home over the winter vacation, try to find time to talk this over with your parents.</p>
<p>Wishing you all the best.</p>
<p>Shrinkrap, anxiety is one symptom of NVLD. Kids with NVLD (kind of Aspergers lite) frequently don't understand social interactions, which can make them anxious all the time.</p>
<p>Perhaps you can see a psychiatrist either privately or through the school health center who can prescribe (different/new) medication for your anxiety. It is okay to switch counselors of this one isn't working out for you. Sometimes you get better help from people not affiliated with the school. I think your parents can support you by helping you get the help you need, even if you live far away. It is also okay to move closer to your family if you need support. Lots of college age kids find out they prefer to be closer to their families when they need help throughout the year. Regarding the people you hurt: apologize and briefly explain your situation to those whom you have treated badly. Then forgive yourself and move forward. Whatever you do, see a medical doctor who can check you out to make sure your anxiety is not being caused by any underlying physical problems. It might be good to see someone while you are at home over the holidays. Good luck.</p>
<p>ive been officially diagnosed w/ Anxiety and am on meds and ppl can already tell a difference..i feel like my old self...ive been w/ family and friends all weekend and i can tell a difference in everything...im seeing my bf for new years. He's coming up from DE. to relax and enjoy time in ny. im happy too just b w/ him. my NVLD has been minor and yes while i have mild social anxiety, i have more generalized anxiety. Grades are coming in i unfortunately will more then likely lose a very small scholarship but i plan on working for another scholarship, possibly larger. I have decent grades and hope they go up</p>