<p>I have difficulty paying attention with most forms of learning. </p>
<p>Reading:</p>
<pre><code>Even last year, when I was super-motivated (in terms of amount of work done) and enjoyed school, it took me hours to read a textbook chapter. I think (I don't completely remember) I read in small chunks. Between pararaph-sized chunks, I'm not entirely sure what happened. I would just "lose" time.
When I outlined, things were even worse. My note-taking skills were terrible-I pretty much reworded the textbook. But, the problem was, it took me longer than if I had simply rewritten the textbook and I retained nothing. It took me 3-4 hours to read a US textbook chapter, for example. I'm pretty sure I outlined in one or two sittings. It took friends the same amount of time-when they included facebook time.
And, yet, I have no problem comprehending the books (mostly fantasy) I read outside of school. With many of them, I actually get really emotionally involved. I have no problem following the plotline or recalling details-even though it is impossible for me to recall the word before the one I'm on.
Come to think of it, I didn't have trouble reading for school, either. By the end of most of them, I had developed a means of interpreting all the events in the book.
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<p>Listening:</p>
<pre><code>It is worse in the classroom. I guess you could say that I habitually zone out. The problem is that I don't think about anything. I just zone. I'm barely aware of the passage of time. And yet I am somewhat aware of the lesson going on-I copy down the notes and do the problems and everything. I even do pretty well on the tests-but perhaps that's because I have learned what information is necessary to retain.
Also, there are my experiences with Columbia SHP. Last semester, even during the lecture, once a slide had passed, I could not tell you what was on it. Even on the occasions where I especially tried to pay attention, especially towards the beginning, I would give up by the end. I could not seem to remember anything from the beginning and apply it to the end. In other words, I didn't get it.
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<p>I have trouble organizing my thoughts.
For example, we recently had a debate in English. I knew something was wrong with one of the first points made by the opposing side. I knew I could effectively rebut with a compact question. I tried to ask that question-and got a tip-of-the-tongue effect. I ended up stumbling/stuttering my way through two formulations of the question that fell short. The rest of the time, I gave up and zoned.</p>
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<p>I have a problem with procrastination.
This is especially true this year. Last year, I had anxiety issues to keep me on task. Earlier this year, without (or sometimes even with) the anxiety, it would take me hours to get started on my homework. I was constantly going to bed late just to get up early-without having done my homework. Without the extra pressure in the morning, I just could not bring myself to complete an assignment. Recently, I've completely given up doing homework at home. I finish all of it in study hall (besides the rare essay-which I turn in late, anyway).</p>