<p>You are already very very competitive. You’ve done MUCH better than the average American kid and you’re better than most Asian kids. Sure, you’re probably not incredible, but that doesn’t matter. You don’t need to be incredible to be successful in life. Based on what you’ve accomplished so far, you should be pretty proud of yourself. </p>
<p>Now, my advice for you based on what i read is to keep strong, and try to do what YOU CAN as they request things from you. Try to negotiate, but they probably aren’t willing to compromise (you said “i want to kill myself” and they didn’t even care) >.< So, just don’t let what they say get into your head and be strong. They might hurt your high school experience, but high school is not the best time of your life. You still have college, when you can cut all ties with them and live your OWN life.</p>