<p>I have like 4 AP english essays to write + AP Chem test + ap calc test + ap phy test all tomorrow and I wrote this essay in like 45 minutes and i know its crappy but can someone please read it and give me feedback.</p>
<p>Well, You See, in Chinese
Well, you see, in Chinese, its done this way
I have said many a time to the curious person I happen to be conversing with. Most of the time, I am eager to explain the ways of my native culture to the inquisitive outsider, but after many, many times of experiencing this, it slowly dawned on me that I was the actual outsider! Consequently, I started to realize what it was to be different, to be isolated from the rest of the people who inhabit my diurnal life. After investigating this boggling perplexity for quite a while at a young age (and up till now), I realized that it was much more than my obviously alien appearance that contributed to this sense of remoteness from my peers. The differences that I have found come in two different categories: qualitative isolation and situational isolation.
The initial type of separation that I extracted from my life was that of the inherent qualities of my person. The first thing that came to mind was my language. For this section of me, I was living a double lifeI was active in English in the morning and during the day, while Chinese took over at home at night. Initially, however, this was not true. As a member of a penurious family of immigrants merely seeking the American dreammy mother was after her doctoratewe settled in the apartments within the University of Mississippi Medical Center. With my parents speaking on Chinese at home, I was hard pressed to acclimate myself to the new world. Eventually, I managed to grasp a foothold on the base of the mountain that was the English language, but only after a hard time and even demoralizing ridicule from my oh-so-intimidating five-year-old peers. As I slowly clambered up that rugged mountain (falling quite a few times) with the passing of age, my English improved drastically, but occasionally, my speech had some problems. At the most awkward times, I would suddenly blurt out English that was probably closer to Chinese, a curiosity which I would call a language lapse. In addition to this, sometimes I have some embarrassing times with idioms, though these are reaching a stage of rarity now. However, there are other things to fill in this gap for embarrassment. Whenever I talk to my parents over the phone, we use our home tongue, and all too often, a classmate lurks nearby, waiting. Sometimes, they will just wait till the conversation is over, then tease me about it; other times they (try to) start imitating me, which is funny sometimes, but can get quite annoying. Obviously by now, one can see that language presents some problems that contribute to my isolation, but speech is only half-foreign. On the contrary, my cultural values seem to be almost completely Chinese, since my parents passively enforce it upon me. One element of culture that is important to everyday life is food. Everyone is exposed to the stereotype that Chinese people eat rice. (Unfortunately, those same people probably do not realize that, sadly, we eat it every single day at every single meal, excepting those few spectacular times where we might succumb to a meal of chow mein or such.) Another difference in culture that lends to seclusion is a separate set of morals and scholarship. From Chinese parents everywhere, there is a much higher expectation placed upon their childrenmy parents are no exception to this rule. For example, when an American parent would start seeking punishment on their children when grades fall below maybe a B, cries of utter despair can be heard in Chinese household when the grade level fails to go at least ten percent above the maximum (If you work hard enough, you will be able to do it, I promise!). Also, behavioral and moral criteria are usually based on the rough childhoods of the parents. Another facet of culture is that minorities tend to clump together; my parents tend to bunch up with other Chinese families, thereby isolating us from Americans. An additional important part of the cultural difference is the celebrations. Naturally, the holidays between two cultures will be different. For example, there is the Chinese New Year, occurring anywhere from mid-January to February. Also, there is the Mid-autumn Festival, for which there was recently a gala at Mississippi College. One can already see how this would lead to isolation; my parents still religiously follow the Chinese holidays, and they try to incorporate the American holidays into our lives. However, something always seems to be missing from the holidays, whether it be an incorrectly done tradition or somethingthis contributes to my sense of being different from others. One final personal trait sets me off is that which is most obvious to the person who first sees me: my appearance. In a room of twenty people randomly selected from my school, it would be easy to pick me out, armed with the foreknowledge that I am Chinese. Also, being of a different ethnicity also opens doors for racial remarks. I can take the ones made in good nature, but sometimes they are not so nice, and that annoys me. Apart from all of these personal qualities, however, there are also other things that have isolated me.
These next groups of situational things that isolate me consist of both spatial and circumstantial examples. The first instance is my childhood. Due to a lack of communication outside of my familys ethnic circle, I was lead to be isolated from a true childhood. In fact, almost of all my friends were Chinese, except for those at school, which brings up another point. Since kindergarten I have had a diverse taste in schools in the greater Jackson metro area. From kindergarten to third grade, I attended Spann Elementary and in fourth and fifth, Power APAC. At this point, we moved to Madison, so in sixth grade I went to Rosa Scott, which was obsolete the next year, as Madison Middle School was completed. Finally, in eighth grade I moved to Jackson Academy. During this multitude of school changes, I was the new kid at school quite a few times. This, in combination with an average command of English, led to a shy childhood.
Despite all these setbacks, however, it is generally easier for me to not feel isolated anymore. In fact, I believe that these impediments merely aided me in fitting in and becoming less isolated. These experiences have also fostered a better understanding of human naturemainly the part of being separatedin me. Through this knowledge acquired from these experiences, I have realized that it is best to expose oneself to more and more aspects of life in order to be catholic in ones viewpoints on life.</p>