<p>@Zilch3: Thank you for the reply. Please don’t feel too badly about not understanding the trauma that follows sexual assault - I didn’t either until I lived it myself, and even then my experience doesn’t define those of the many other men and women who have been through something similar. </p>
<p>I agree that it might be best for me to actually dedicate a significant amount of essay space to my experience. It was the hardest part of the application, to be honest. I wound up writing about my passion in East Asian studies, and how determined I am to continue studying China and Japan, and only spent one paragraph talking about my rape. I’m caught between not wanting my application to appear like a cheap plea for sympathy, and needing adcoms to get a clear picture of exactly what I was going through when I was at McGill. I think you’re absolutely right that, unless I am very clear in the way I talk about my experience, some adcoms will not understand my situation. This is why I chose to apply to so many women’s colleges, as they tend to have a better understanding of rape as a feminist issue.</p>
<p>As for returning to McGill, my parents - who are the primary funding source for my university education - will not hear of it. I have tried on numerous occasions to convince them I would be more than happy to attend, they are very firm on this issue. Furthermore, although I absolutely love McGill and Montreal (god, do I ever miss Montreal and its poutine, great coffee shops, and awesome lifestyle), the colleges I have selected all have an East Asian studies program that focuses on politics, economy, history, and culture, whereas the EAS department at McGill focuses on religion and literature, and continues to be significantly underfunded every year. I used to have long conversations with Prof Furuhata, who is pretty much a rockstar at the McGill EAS dept alongside Adrienne Hurley, about how much she hated the bureaucracy and funding for EAS at McGill. I just wish I were a Poli Sci major! :)</p>
<p>As for the potential for further rejection this coming fall, thank you so much for the concern. I’m absolutely prepared, and even expect, that I will be facing a great deal more rejection. But you know what, life is filled with rejections. I’d better put on my ovaries of steel and just deal with it. :)</p>
<p>Thank you, again, for your input. I really value your comments. If anyone else would care to chance me, or offer their advice (e.g. suggest some match or safety schools, how I should approach my essay, etc.), I would greatly appreciate it! I would be more than happy to chance back in return!</p>