<p>Thank you for the responses! </p>
<p>I think after being in the IB program for 4 years, going to a school like Smith would be a refreshing change since there are no distribution requirements. But I'm not saying this because I want an "easy" curriculum - but it is nice to be able to go to a school that gives me more options. Since I go to a public high school (and especially being in the IB program), I've never gotten the ability to take classes that I want, such as PE (a lot of my friends hate it - and it's required if you're not in full IB) and AP Art History (which was canceled because the district thought it was worth not paying for because most kids didn't sign up for it). </p>
<p>And while I haven't done the greatest in the math and sciences region, I've always had a particular for English, philosophy, history, and Spanish (I actually want to pursue a third language - fourth, I guess, if you count my native language). I guess it's all based on perspective but everyone has weaknesses and I'd like to think that, sadly, math is my weakness (and science, to a lesser extent). But I suppose when a college wants a group of thriving intellectuals, I'm probably not their #1 candidate, yet I'm still willing to try. Granted this semester, I failed (quite literally) and I did plan to drop IB Calc because it was just difficult... but somehow, I managed to stick it out. I think I should give a reason why as to why it isn't an easy class (or the math program at my school in general) - which is mainly that we have only one math program available which teaches every aspect of math each year (i.e. instead of teaching Algebra 1, you learn Algebra, Trig, Calc all in the same year). So TECHNICALLY, I'm not really taking calculus - but a mixture of a lot of different things. While I managed an A back in seventh grade, I took some test and passed, which let me take the program one year early. And it just didn't help me learn math - instead of teaching straightforward step-by-step, the book forced me to learn myself. So when I was at home and trying to learn, it didn't work for me, especially since if I didn't know what to do, it didn't tell me... The program didn't work for a lot of different students and especially this year, there have been quite a few D's and F's in IB Calc - but I'm not trying to make it sound like it's entirely the teacher/book's fault.</p>
<p>Also, I really think I fit the idea of "heady, nervy, and intellectually exciting." I GENUINELY want to learn and I am always on my "epic quest for knowledge" (which sounds philosophically cliched and cheesy). But I love reading Camus and Shakespeare, I love learning about the Manhattan Project, and reading Spanish literature. If there is something that I am TRULY curious about, I'm not going to sit there and ignore it; I am going to figure it out and rationalize it. Also while I like talking about fashion like the next girl, I always find myself talking about philosophy or politics or literature for hours on end. Just today, my friend and I were philosophizing about death (not in a depressing matter) and the societal impact on how we are all just naturally conditioned to fear it. It's a bit of a random example, I'll admit. The IB program has taught me to appreciate the humanities more than I did back in middle school. It's also something that's beyond grades. I mean - grades can show an indication of how hard a student works or how hard he or she can excel in something, but it's not everything... or at least, the idealistic side of me wants to think that. I've seen my friend, who wants to be a mathematician, get straight A's in math and then this year she is struggling to get a C. In all honesty, I've never been the type of person who cared all that much about grades but I really love to learn. I think that's the point of an education - to learn - that it's not always about "going to college to make money."</p>
<p>There are more reasons...I promise...but I just realized how long this became.</p>
<p>My parents are most likely going to write the letter - I think they will also go further into the details as to what happened this semester.</p>
<p>Also, I had an interview with an alumni and I explained to her about the F. She said that while it's a big step downward, that I might have a chance... just this year in general has been a bit of a step downward (socially, academically, etc.) for me, as pathetic as it sounds. She was very understanding and ultimately thought that I would be a potentially good fit at Smith.</p>
<p>Thank you for reading this.</p>