<p>Hey everyone. I joined this place when I was a freshman and I'm finally a senior now. I've made some posts in the past about my struggles but now it's all hitting me in the face and it has become reality. It hurts. A lot.</p>
<p>So I'm going to give you all the basic story along with my stats. I want honest opinions but please refrain from calling me a moron just because my scores are incredibly low. I'm a student that was always put in gifted programs and had straight As until my emotional disorders started to creep up. </p>
<p>This will be fairly long but PLEASE read it!</p>
<p>So here goes.</p>
<p>GPA: 2.3
SAT: 630CR 360M 540W (I had zero preparation--I will go into further detail later.)</p>
<p>Current schedule:</p>
<p>AP Psychology
AP Literature
Math 3r
Gym x2
Government
Economics</p>
<p>Alright, so here is the basic story. I have severe depression and anorexia. Last year, I was hospitalized twice and missed a ton of school. Consequently, I only have TWO classes on my junior year transcript. The classes were gym and honors english. I was technically in AP Language but I skipped the AP test because I refused to get out of bed. The rest were dropped. This has affected my grade tremendously--and not for the better. Obviously.</p>
<p>Freshman year, I basically had all As with maybe one B or so. I began to get very sick towards the end of the year and that's when my grades began to dip a little bit towards the high 80s. Sophomore year I was still sick but managed to get an 86% average or so while attending school on a minimal level. I spent many nights in the ER due to passing out or having to get stitches from self-harm. The summer before junior year, I was hospitalized in a psych ward for suicidal ideation. One month later, I'm in another hospital for anorexia. I return to school and promptly fail nearly everything because I began getting into drugs. My eating disorder was out of hand; my depression was insanely ridiculous. I attended school maybe three times a week at best. So I went back to another hospital for two months. I had four APs for my junior year schedule and I had to drop every single one because of these problems. I'm so ****ed off about that.</p>
<p>So now it's my senior year and I was incredibly depressed up until about three weeks ago where my new anti-depressants kicked in. I feel a lot better and have brought my grades up from either failing or low 70s to high 80s or somewhere in the 90s. I took the SATs in October. I did not study. I had no help from anyone. I was so apathetic towards the test that I left so many answers blank on the math portions. I have not taken a math class since my sophomore year so that is why the math score is so embarrassing. I would retake the SATs because I know that stuff now since I'm learning it in my math class this year, BUT it's too late since I've already applied everywhere.</p>
<p>I've had four years of English, three years of math, four years of French, three years of social studies (including APUSH), and three sciences. While this is most likely irrelevant, I have been in AP Gov, AP Macro, AP Bio, and AP Lang but had to drop them because of the hospitalizations. Prior to dropping them, I was doing fairly well for someone who couldn't function all that much lol.</p>
<p>I live in the suburbs of Buffalo, New York and I have applied to all the local schools so I can stay close to my treatment team for a while before I go off on my own. These are the schools:</p>
<p>University at Buffalo
Canisius College
Medaille College
Daemen College
Buffalo State College
Erie Community College</p>
<p>These are basically the schools that I have the best chances of getting into. The CC is the backup plan in case I don't get in anywhere which is quite probable I think.</p>
<p>Only about three of the schools actually have essays that can be submitted. The essays that I have written are rather good. I have a recommendation from my guidance counselor which contains explanations for my poor grades/scores and a bunch of stuff about my intellect and other talents. </p>
<p>ECs:
Shakespeare club 9-12
Newspaper 9-12 editor
Drama club 9-12
Unity in Diversity 9-12
Model UN 11-12
Literary Magazine 9-12 editor</p>
<p>My goal for undergrad is to eventually transfer to the University of Toronto. I love how the school is so big and I adore the city. It's the perfect place for me to write my books.</p>
<p>Oh and if it matters, I can speak Farsi, English (obviously), French, and a bunch of other languages although those I cannot speak fluently. I know enough to get around in the countries though.</p>
<p>I'm majoring in English.</p>
<p>Please give me your opinions/advice. I'm incredibly ****ed off at myself but what's done is done, right? If I have to, I'll go to the community college and transfer out. I just never imagined myself having to do that as I was always praised and doted upon for my intelligence. Things change I suppose.</p>
<p>Thanks for taking the time to read this. I hope it wasn't too painful.</p>