<p>thank you Lemaitre1 for you advice.</p>
<p>at this point i’m confused. i grew up from birth being drilled into my head that i would become a politican and study political science in college. i went throught high school not thinking about any other possible careers out there. though, yes, just like every little kid thinking of being a doctor went through my head. my sister has been admitted into the hospital every winter for a problem the doctors still cannot figure out. my one side of the family has all died because of cancer. so, my whole family never thought about being doctors or joining the medical field, i assume because they were scared quite possible, or hated the whole idea of medicine.
but, i hate the whole idea of being a lawyer. i can’t see myself doing this.
my mom says “sure, only if you think you can” my dad just laughed at me for even thinking about being one. yet, both my parents work as cashier related jobs.
my sister is too young to even get her idea on it, though she wants to become a doctor.</p>
<p>my advisor told me its not too late to change and start taking pre-med related courses. i’m only scared that “is this really what i want to do?” “what if i am that person who doesn’t make it into med school?” but at the same time i am thinking “i wanna do this to prove my dad wrong” “i want to help people, and listen to their stories” “i want the satisfaction knowing that today i helped someone (even though, yes, i know sometimes you have to deliver bad news as well)” </p>
<p>today i signed up for BIO200, which is into Bio I & BIO201, which is the lab course with it. i didn’t do so well on my GEO course, i got a C in lab and the course. which i reget to this day since it was the first time i ever got a C, 2 at that. & pretty much i had to memorize 150 rocks, but its was fun to learn. </p>
<p>i have only Volunteer work at a orphanage overseas that hosted for mentally challenge kids. i thought them english every weekend, took some traveling, and pretty much acted as a friend and older sister to some of them for a year. </p>
<p>i don’t want to keep pursuing a degree in poli-sci. sociology is intreging to me, but i don’t know if its because i hang out with many doctors this past year who work in fields such as pathology, Urology, neurology & GP or if my heart really says i want to be this. </p>
<p>being an anesthesiologist was always somewhat intruging to me, and caught my interest. </p>
<p>i want to pursue, at the same time i don’t.
i know its takes many years of studying, and you’ll probably have no social life. i don’t mind, quite truthfully, i’d rather study than hang out.
the satisfaction of finshing med-school not only first in my family, and sticking to it the whole way through is more rewarding to me.
i think the reason i am so stressed about this is because i can’t get advice from my family since they really either don’t care, or don’t belive i can do it, and weather doing this is ultimately the right desicion. if i am too late in the process, or if it is a joke for even thinking i can pursue this kindof career. as many start thinking about this from high school. </p>
<p>i did english already, 2 semsters.
i think right now if i do BIO and do a good job at it i’ll be able to figure out what i should do next.
any advice ?</p>