Hi there. I have never really posted on forums before, but here goes. I hope I’m not making a discussion that already has a thread. If so, let me know and I might just look to that for advice.
So I’m a senior in high school, and this admissions process is stressing me out immensely. I have submitted a few apps, but I keep obsessing over little details after the fact. I’ve also been obsessing over chance me threads and the like. It’s getting to the point of not just “doing some research” but a really unhealthy obsession.
It feels like once I get to the end of the school year and everyone gets into their colleges (or chooses to work or whatever else they have in mind), it will all just be… pointless…
Those who got into HYP or any other prestigious schools are going to be on cloud nine, as they well deserve. Congrats to them. Others will be accepted to what some might consider “mediocre” or “bad” schools, but be happy with their outcome (I ESPECIALLY admire these people. Like a lot-- more than I admire even HYP people. They’re so secure in themselves while I feel like a mess.) I know college isn’t a reflection of success. It’s WHAT you do there. But I still can’t cap these feelings of depression, fear, anxiety, dread, etc. I just want to escape.
So my point is, we’re all just going to be comparing our acceptances and rejections with one another, measuring our worth because, like a bunch of kids, we don’t know much more than that about the world to have an alternate scale of success/value. Then, after we’re done determining who is the best of the best and the worst of the worst. Who is a nobody and who is going to be the next Elon Musk. After all of that, we just leave. Leave and never see each other again.
That’s really sad to me. I don’t know how to be positive about this process anymore.
Personally, I applied ED to UPenn. Hoping for the best, but right now I’m just acting like I already got rejected (even though that makes me more depressed). I had an older brother who applied ED too with an even better app than mine, but got outright rejected. We aren’t the same people, but I do think there is still some correlation. Really terrified about the decision on Dec. 15th. You can’t really predict with these types of selective schools, so I won’t make a chance me thread. The number of ED apps increased this year, from 6147 apps to 6731 apps. Around 40 percent are from the northeast, which I think makes it even harder for me to get in.
Just… how do I deal with all this. Impossible chances. Negative environment at school. Cutthroat competition. I know that I at least need to stop feeling sorry for myself.
Sorry for the essay. If you do comment, thanks so much for your time.