<p>Ok. So I am contemplating transferring back to my old school after this year.</p>
<p>When I graduated from high school, I wanted to go into journalism and I decided to apply to University of Missouri as they have one of the best in the country. I was really excited about going to Mizzou and was ecstatic when I got in. Freshman year was a difficult year for me personally and academically. At least my first semester. My girlfriend at the time was also going to Mizzou and we broke up at the beginning of the year. This along with other things sent me spiraling downward into a deep depression and i ended up having to wipe my slate clean by dropping all of my classes. Second semester was much better at least academically as I found my stride. However I didn't have a great social life. I wasn't interested in journalism anymore and I wanted to do theater. I also wasn't interested in drinking all the time. I wanted to be able to do other things besides drinking. Don't get me wrong I love to go out and have a good time but i have many other interests including film and art. I decided that I wanted to go to DePaul. I was deadset on getting out and I made that very clear to everyone around me. I had friends at Mizzou but I never really thought that they valued my friendship as much as they actually did. I didn't have a good roommate situation or a good dorm. </p>
<p>I ended up getting out. I actually found out two days before I was supposed to go back to Mizzou that I was accepted at DePaul. Unfortunately I don't think I did enough research or thought this through. I never really considered the advantages of going to Mizzou. While I have excelled academically at DePaul, I have not been that happy. I went through a huge bout of depression at the end of my sophomore year. This year has been worse emotionally. My grades slipped a little bit as well. The more and more I think about it the more and more I miss Missouri. This is in spite of the fact that I joined a frat this year and do have friends. Recently things in my personal life have gone awry. I miss the sense of community that Mizzou had. DePaul basically feels like high school all over again.</p>
<p>However the biggest reason is that I need to get away from Chicago. Yes it is a great city but to paraphrase the great Sidney Poitier in Guess Who Is Coming to Dinner: "I need to be my own man." I can't be relying on my parents the way I do now. Whenever I have a problem or an assignment that is due and I need help on I run home. Say what you will about my academic history at Mizzou but I couldn't run home when I was on the deadline and had something due. While my methods might not have been the best, I got things done by myself. Being in Chicago is too tempting. I feel like I have matured a lot since I left Mizzou. I don't think I ever took full advantage of the opportunities I had in Columbia. I visited Columbia for the first time since I left and not only did I have a blast but I realized that my friends were actually really glad to see me. I am going to spend the Summer at Mizzou taking classes their summer school program. I am going to be testing the waters. Any advice. Sorry for rambling.</p>