<p>just let the pain end quickly.</p>
<p>yes yes eys yes yes yes</p>
<p>i know… i’ve been pretty calm lately but I almost started crying earlier today. I don’t think I’m getting in, but just thinking about the possibility of being admitted made me tear up with tears of joy, and thinking of the real possibility of rejection made me tear up in the bad way… damn. I don’t want it to be 3 because I’m really worried I’ll be crushed… but then again, I don’t want to wait any longer!</p>