<p>Northstarmom is a very wise woman. Heed her advice.</p>
<p>Go to your counseling center. You are too too close to your situation to see your choices and to evaluate where you are. You’ve let yourself down but all is not lost. Suicide doesn’t fix anything, and it really upsets your friends and family.</p>
<p>Go to your counseling center. Please. Tonight if you can, tomorrow if you must. A counselor will help you see alternatives and will help you put your emotions in perspective.</p>