<p>this is more of a vent/have no other place to turn type of post. i understand if no one has any solid advice for my predicament.</p>
<p>i have narrowed my college selection to two schools-- goucher (MD) and belot (WI) ... i was accepted at both by the way.</p>
<p>i want to go to Beloit. i had an amazing experience there and everyone i met was incredibly nice, helpful, and positive. i loved it there.
i also visited goucher and had a less positive experience (probably because i was sick that day, traveled many hours to get there, and it was pouring rain) i did not feel the same connection to goucher as i did to beloit however im afraid that i really did not give it a fair chance.</p>
<p>so heres the problem: i am Jewish. and not just in the cultural sense. i'm fairly religious and depend a lot on my Jewish community. I literally can not imagine living in a place with out a strong Jewish community. I depend on it sooo much. Beloit lacks this entirely, Goucher has a huge and very active Jewish community. I don't know how to weigh the good with the bad... any advice/personal experience would be amazing. this problem has taken over my life and to be honest, i just want to be done with the entire college process. i'm over it.</p>
<p>on top of that, when i think about it, leaving california (my home) scares me more then anything. when i applied to colleges in october i wanted nothing more then to get out of CA and get away from my family...i didnt even apply to a single school in this state (or the west coast) and im feeling like that was a huge mistake, i really don't want to leave, but i know its out of fear...this makes the decision even harder because i know that a strong Jewish community would make the transition to college a ton easier.
but alas, i want to go to beloit. im so conflicted!</p>