<p>I have these moments sometimes...like when me and my 3 best friends are driving back from the beach and we're sing really loud and taking goofy pictures and yelling at bikers out the window and laughing at creepy guys checking us out....where I pause and think, "I've never been this happy in my whole life". And it's true. I just continue to get happier. </p>
<p>But everyone has their downer days when nothing goes right. Like when I fight with my best friend who I NEVER fight with. Or when I am having boy problems. Or my parents are ****ing me off. </p>
<p>So I just think of those really happy moments. And even though I sometimes don't believe it when I tell myself that I used to be happy, eventually I fall out of it and I have another incredibly happy moment. </p>
<p>But what's depressing is that now I'm having "omg I go to college in 8 months and I'll never have moments like this with these people again".</p>
<p>surfette, haha i used to get like that. Take it from me, youll meet new people and not really care anymore. Sure when you all come home for breaks you'll see eachother and still be great friends, but as long as you go to college with an open mind to meet people and have a great time everything will work out fine. That goes for all of you on this thread, stop worrying and just have fun...ITS HIGHSCHOOL.</p>
<p>I've had depression issues (not sure if it could be diagnosed as such) for the past year. Some stems from family problems (isolation) and cultural/religious issues (I don't fit in... at all) A lot of it is social-life related, having lots of friends/being popular, yet never being part of any group means I miss out on a lot and so things that other people do just bother me and have me questioning myself; am I doing things right, where I went wrong, that sort of stuff. A lot of the time I will take a tiny little thing and sort of blow it out of proportion myself, until I'm just completely overburdened with this sense of selfpity/selfhate and despair.</p>
<p>Coupled with what can be described as self image problems (can't take a compliment...about anything...because I will not believe you) and cynicism really just leaves me feeling quite lonely a lot of the time. Friends will be out doing stuff and I'll usually be at home. That, and 3-4 hours of sleep a night and stress have made me seriously contemplate ... plan out location/time/stuff... suicide quite a few times in the past year or so. </p>
<p>I've been using lawnmowing, nature, and poetry as outlets though and they help. Surfette, at least you've got the happy moments :)</p>
<p>Oh gawd, boys are easyyyy (I'm a guy myself) it's you ladies that have me figuratively bashing my head into the wall!</p>
<p>My parents are no help and I really don't feel like seeking the help of any adults... I'm over the whole self-mutilation thing though and haven't done drugs/don't drink regularly so I don't think I pose that much of a real threat to myself. I also don't want to I guess... change so that I fit in really well with one group and get all yippieyay!</p>
<p>I'm quite manic most of the time though... I've decided not to let little things blow out of proportion this year and get to me like they have in the past.</p>
<p>And burgler, it's easier said than done... just having fun also can bring back bad memories/feelings. If it were like flipping a switch, those of us who have these problems would have done it long ago.</p>
<p>burgler....yeah I make friends realitively easily, but i eally don't want to let go of the friends I have now. </p>
<p>My VERY best friend and I have been friends since freshman year and we are two peas in a pod. I have had multiple other best friends, but non compare to the relationship I have with my current best friend. I've never completely connected with anyone like this before and she is the rock in my life. I am worried that we will both change when we go to college and therefore never have the same friendship. </p>
<p>The second hardest relationship that I'll have to give up is with my best guy friend. We've always been a little more than friends and we flirt like crazy, but we've never actually done or said anything about it. He is the type of guy that hates the phone/computer, but can carry on an in-person convo like there's no tomorrow. </p>
<p>fengshui, I know how you feel. Well sorta at least. That whole "having tons of friends but never being part of an actual group" was the story of my life near the end of 8th grade and begining of 9th. I don't think people realize how hard it is to not have a friendship outlet. My advise? Just be really friendly with everyone. Take the initiative to call them up and ask what the plans are. This may sound crappy, especially because you don't particularly care about any of these people, but one person could surprise you and end up becoming a good friend...hey it happened to me. </p>
<p>But if all else fails, I can be your friend fengshuibundi :)</p>
<p>I was depressed for a while too. It took place during my sophomore year. I didn't even realize what was going on. I had very unsupportive friends at that time so they just made fun of me, which made it worse. It affected my grades horribly; I went from being an A/B average student to Bs, Cs and one F. I ended up getting out of it but I wish I had done something about it sooner because I'm afraid it affected my GPA :-(</p>
<p>yeah it sucks but you just need to find ways to snap out of that funk. ive felt it and its frustrating at times too. sometimes listening to music helps, or just sitting there and thinking about something clears your head after a while. its tough but you can find ways to get through it</p>
<p>I would take a nice break from school. Christmas was suppose to do but I personally worked on applications 24/7. I think I'm going to use my break between semesters to get myself back in line. Good luck with your problems, it will probably get better when it starts snowing. I live in PA and for the first time I didn't have snow for Christmas. (sorry I had to say that.)</p>
<p>Skip school for two days, thursday and friday is good.
Dont think about school, just exercise and watch t.v eat and do random things you normally dont get to do. Like I started watching anime last year. It's friggin awesome!!! I recommend Naruto, Bleach, Death Note, Love Hina, and Ouran high school Host Club</p>
<p>Take out a piece of paper adn write down your goals and give tehm a date for it to be done. Sign it as if it were a contract with a close friend as a witness to make you keep up with it. </p>
<p>Try not to worry about college too much. Make yourself a contigency plan for when you dont want to go to college. Like for me i plan on going to New York Film Academy for a year if I dont get into my colleges. This way you have crutch.</p>
<p>Find a fun job or club and make new friends. Fun jobs are better though. You get the benefits of a fun club AND money.</p>
<p>Everyday study 10 minute for every subject as a review what you learned that day. it really helps. Do 20 minutes. take a break then do another 20.
By the time you have a test you wont need to cram as much.</p>
<p>If you exercise consistently adn you do teh studying program you should have sufficient amount of sleep and you wont feel all that tired in the morning.</p>
<p>For parties and going out and such pick ONE day a week to go out. For that entire day don't do anything related to school unless of course the day you picked was a school day.</p>
<p>If you can study with you friends. Not friend you are in the same class btu jsut friends. the fact that you are all together all studying motivates others to do the same. If people are being distracted tell them why they are doing what they're doing.Also it can end up being fun and usually you get amazing grades when you do this.</p>
<p>so yea this worked for everyone i've told so far...which amazing is half my senior class.</p>