I’m in my second semester of freshman year, and I currently hate the situation I’m in. My confidence has been at an all time low since starting college (thoughts that I’m not good enough), I’m constantly riddled with anxiety and sadness, and I can’t stand being in school. I’ve made some friends that are super nice and we go out occasionally and have a good time, and this semester I’ve been to some org meetings, but I’m still left feeling unfulfilled and constantly scared (like the bad outweighs the good). Even just returning to school this semester gave me horrible anxiety beforehand and made me feel sick to my stomach. Everyone around me seems to have a collective passion and love for the school and the city but I honestly don’t. Additionally, I have no idea if the major I’m pursuing is a good fit for me or not, so that adds to the unease. I didn’t experience these emotions very often in high school, and I’m not sure if I should transfer or not.
On the one hand, I could hate my university and a transfer to another university would be beneficial to me.
On the other hand, I might just hate school in general and a transfer would not make me any happier and result in a huge waste of time and money (in which case I would just ride it out).
How can I tell the difference?
As a freshman, have you even declared a major yet ?
Overall, it is tough to offer advice without knowing more specifics about you, your specific likes & dislikes, your current school (I assume that it is UT-Austin), and what you expect or want from college.
Can you look for an internship or research opportunity for this upcoming summer to help you see if your major is right for you?
You might want to go to the health center and talk to a psychiatrist about it. This is way more common than you might think and a few weeks of therapy can make a world of difference. You don’t hate school, you hate how you’re feeling right now.