<p>it's just frightening to think about how much control each of us has, and how fragile life can really be.</p>
<p>I used to have that a lot. I was very depressed. I got professional help and it's no longer intense like it used to be.</p>
<p>But yes, I do still very much have those urges when driving or otherwise in a precarious position. It's more adventure now, not real, and not something I'll ever follow through on.</p>
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Yeah, I'm on the top floor of my building for the summer, and I usually lean out of my window to enjoy the scenery/talk (yell) with people down below... It's just like, what if I let go? Hmm.
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i actually understand those thoughts, just because i'm curious. I definitely dont want to die because i'm afraid of dying, but you know, just curiousity. or when somebody committed commmited suicide or something you just wonder what they were last thinking or feeling right before they did it.</p>
<p>I've had similar thoughts. Not exactly the same, but along the same line. I'm not suicidal, I mean, I don't want to die, I'd rather live lol. But I do have some OCD-ish thoughts, such as, when I'm driving at night, with few cars on the streets, I suddenly get this huge urge to shut my eyes while I drive. But you don't understand, its like I feel I NEED to do it ( OCD-ish), but then I just reason with myself and don't. But it comes to thepoint where I'll start sweating and concentrating on keeping my eyes open. It also happens to me in othere situations. I'f I'm near I ledge, I have this huge urge to stand on it, etc, stuff like that.</p>
<p>Well, I sometimes think things like that, but the thing is, it's not in an "emo/I want to kill myself" way. It really helps me be more careful and helps me appreciate living even more.</p>
<p>weed'll do that 2 u</p>
<p>This is an extremely common mental disorder. It can easily be controlled with medication. Often it is seen in new mothers who for no reason get sudden impulses to throw their baby in the fireplace or something and then are horrified at themselves. Or people who are at the top of the building at imagine themselves jumping off. Very common, see a doctor if it is troubling you. Doesn't sound like it's too bad though. If the urges ever become really serious, you need to see someone.</p>
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<p>Yes, becasuse everyone knows that smoking weed makes you want to kill yourself. </p>
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<p>This is right out of Annie Hall. God, that's a great scene with Christopher Walken.</p>
<p>Duane: Can I confess something? I tell you this as an artist,I think you'll understand. Sometimes when I'm driving... on the road at night... I see two headlights coming toward me. Fast. I have this sudden impulse to turn the wheel quickly, head-on into the oncoming car. I can anticipate the explosion. The sound of shattering glass. The... flames rising out of the flowing gasoline. </p>
<p>Alvy: Right. Well, I have to - I have to go now, Duane, because I, I'm due back on the planet Earth.</p>
<p>sometimes I get the urge to run over people going 15 under in the left lane on the interstate!</p>
<p>^: Common, but sadly unavoidable. :)</p>
<p>@ OP: It sounds like you need to talk with a counselor/therapist. Depending on how severe your "twitches" are, you may just need an ear to listen to, or you could need medicine. Just remember... there's always someone out there who will listen to you.</p>