<p>sorry if this is rather long but it will probably help you understand my issues.</p>
<p>I am going into my sophomore year of college and honestly if I had the choice of going or not going I am sure I would pick to not go. My freshman year was rough mainly because I have been diagnosed with depression and anxiety disorder ( this is previous to my freshman year). It made it really hard for me to relax and enjoy my time. I would come home every weekend from school in order to recharge myself bc I would have too much interaction with people and it would break me down. Obviously because of this I did not make many friends and I was okay with that then but now I feel like I will be a social outcast. Part of me cares and part of me does not. I think I have become so good at putting on a happy face I haven't really considered what I really need.
It also did not help that my roommate wasn't very accommodating and basically claimed the room as her own meaning she did not care about my needs.
I move in this coming Sunday and I am not excited at all. I will be living with three other girls that I don't know, but I will have my own room. I just feel incredibly overwhelmed and emotionally unstable. Last night, my mom asked if I had started packing yet and I flipped out. She told me she would help me when I was ready but I don't think I will ever be. This stress is taking a toll on me. I can't sleep or eat without a sense of dread. I wake up and have a panic attack bc I hate change and I realize college is a great way to learn about yourself but my emotions are not normal.</p>
<p>Part of me is wondering if college is right for me? Part of me wants that experience while the other part says I can do without it. I had a pretty decent job this summer which I loved working at a day care center. I am wondering what would happen if I dropped out of school and decided to work instead.</p>
<p>Please give me some advice I could really use it right now. thanks and please be kind. </p>
<p>I can’t really offer you a solution because I feel the same way. </p>
<p>I’m a sophomore this year also, and I worked a couple of years before starting at a CC. I think about it quite often whether college is really “for me” but I have forced my way through it so far. I’m not going to quit but that thought of “am I doing the right thing?” is always there. The thoughts are usually there when i’m feeling down, if everything is going good at the moment I don’t have those thoughts. So far I have disliked the start of every semester, it can be stressful but gets better as the semester goes along. So don’t get to worried if things don’t start off well. </p>
<p>Did you get help for your anxiety and depression? If not, consider going to a counselor at school to get help dealing with these issues. Many students are dealing with these problems.</p>
<p>My only other advice is talk to your mom. Have a heart to heart talk about if your current plan needs to change. Would you be better off at a CC for a semester or two? A leave of absence for a semester? Would a lighter course load help?</p>
<p>Thank you for all of the advice. My mom and I have decided that I will stay the semester and reevaluate my options over winter break. In the mean time, I will be taking things day by day and it is helpful to know home is only an hour away in case of an emergency. I am getting help for my issues and I tried talking to a counselor last year at school but we didn’t really connect. Might try again this year. I tend to have a lot of mood swings that varies on degree of severity. Sometimes I just get sad and other times I completely fold in on myself and need to be left alone.
My mom made a good point that I roughed it out my first year and will try to make it through a semester. </p>
<p>Thanks again :)</p>
<p>Are you registered with the disabilities office in case you need accommodations?</p>
<p>Hopefully this semester will be less stressful since you know your way the campus and the college system. So many little things that you need to learn as a Freshman you now know. Good luck. </p>
<p>If you need to, it’s also not a bad idea to take a semester off to do something different for a while and reassess and focus on yourself. Also, sometimes you need to try out a few different counselors to find one that you really click with. If one isn’t working out for you, find another one to try out</p>
<p>Thanks everyone. I am registered in the disabilities office and I want to try out the semester before I make a big decision of leaving college. Thanks for all of the advice :)</p>