<p>I LOVE the school and want to get in so badly because of that, but is any one else also scared about not getting in and being really humiliated?</p>
<p>I definitely am, especially since all of my friends, teachers, and family friends know I applied ED. Not to mention everyone my grandmother told. Kind of regretting not just telling people I wasn't applying early</p>
<p>ilurvebrown, i agree - i'm equally afraid of being humiliated as i am about not being able to go to brown. i feel like everyone is either going to pity me or smugly scoff at the fact that i didn't make it. really wishing i had kept this brown thing a secret....</p>
<p>Exactly! That was actually my plan at first, and it was working-- I only told my best friend (and my parents of course) but at my school people are like OBSESSED with knowing everything about where people are applying, and Im so obsessed with Brown that eventually it came out and now EVERYONEEE knows :S And I go to an international school and the international pool is sooo much more competitive sometimes than the US pool so to them a 2200 is like average, and there I am with my crappy grades just praying that I can get in somehow.. I can like feel them judging me haha But yeah, Im super worried and nervous :(</p>
<p>The teacher who wrote one of my recommendation letters is <em>expecting</em> me to get in. He wouldn't be disappointed in me, but disgusted at the school. He's disappointed that I didn't apply to Yale early. <em>rolls eyes</em></p>
<p>So telling him I got deferred or rejected would/will be a big effin bummer.</p>
<p>But Ive made sure not to be like confident about it or anything, so atleast people won't be like "haha you thoughttt you would get in and you didn't"... Whenever people ask me about it I'm always like "yeah, I love it and I'm applying but I'm fully aware that it is a super reach for me"...</p>
<p>at my school i'm a BGOC [big girl on campus], and well-known for my grades.... it's a small school and everyone's known for something.</p>
<p>So if I don't get in, everyone will know and will say something to me about it. UGHH</p>
<p>haha yeah i try to be very nonchalant about it. just like "psh its not like i'm gonna get in anyway" (crying inside) even though my friends all know how much i'm freaking out.</p>
<p>i think the only real solution for our problems here is just for all of us to get accepted =D (i know, i know - keep dreaming)</p>
<p>Hopeful- That sounds like a good plan :D I hopeee we all get in <3 I would be so unbelievably happy, oh my gosh I couldn't even imagineeee haha
I start smiling uncontrolably whenever I imagine getting in hahaha</p>
<p>Do you guys have chance threads?
Could you look at mine, only if you wanna though :)</p>
<p>I wish I could say I "couldn't even imagine". I can imagine it all too well, in fact, I keep on picturing it in my mind....</p>
<p>STOP! IT MAY NOT HAPPEN!</p>
<p>The 11th's my last final. I have it with one of the teachers who wrote me a recommendation, too... he'd be the first person I told at school if I got in.</p>
<p>Yeah, focusing's gonna be a little hard.</p>
<p>Ha ha. Yesterday I was running and I imagined getting into brown, it felt SO right! Of course I veered off the path and luckily retraced my steps before I fell into the river but I'm so scared it won't be a reality.
As for decision time: ill probably sleep. I'm determined to sleep till 3 am my time which is when the decisions come out because if I don't I think I might just freak myself to death! I asked my best friend in London to be on skype when I get it so I can freak or cry to someone</p>
<p>i know! i keep imagining myself getting in (i had a dream about it last night) and every time i want to slap myself in the face and snap out of it. maybe i should try shock therapy...</p>
<p>I also had a dream about getting into Brown...it was weird though b/c I was in a grocery store on a school field trip...</p>
<p>I've not had a Brown Dream yet=[ and i want to get in soo much</p>
<p>Honestly, I think I'm a little more worried about what I'll do after 5:05 PM...</p>
<p>aftermath = worse than during</p>
<p>Naw... nerves are caused by issues out of my control. What happens after I get in/rejected is not out of my control.</p>
<p>I'm going to a massive Christmas concert with Death Cab, Killers, Bloc Party, Franz Ferdinand and Jack's Mannequin right after. So either way, it's going to be an awesome night for me. :)</p>