<p>I have no idea why, but lately all I want to is sit and do nothing. Maybe listen to some music but that's it. I've also been an emotional mess and I don't know why.
So can anyone out there help? Or at least tell me that I'm not alone? Anyone else feeling like this?</p>
<p>yup same here. I have a list of reasons that go 6 feet deep. The only way to cope, seriously, is to hang out witt your friends and skip a day of school every week. I know ppl are going to say its bad but hell im a senior ill do whatever I want.</p>
<p>Friends? Who are these friends you speak of?</p>
<p>No, seriously. That's part of the problem.</p>
<p>It could be the effect that the weather has on you. It has been gray and gross here for such a long time... and some of my friends feel incredibly apathetic and depressed in this type of weather. It's a stupid answer, but...</p>
<p>I'm with you, Silver<em>and</em>Jade. No reasons, either... it's just been too much life or something. Hopefully we will get better over the summer; that's what I'm hoping for.</p>
<p>if friends are a problem set yourself some goals. change yourself. do something. get a job. </p>
<p>btw whether or not your a guy getting a job is good. You may end up making friends and if not you always have money to buy things. buying things are known to help ppl feel better. buy clothes if your a nerd.</p>
<p>btw i wasn't trying to be mean.</p>
<p>and also be more confident. how? force yourself to make small talk with ppl.</p>
<p>Sometimes I just feel very fed up with my friends and want nothing to do with them. They just seem so phony and self-absorbed sometimes (I'm a female Holden Caulfield... ha). They don't treat me any differently, but I suddenly become very annoyed with them, and isolate myself. I'm usually very outgoing, but every once in a while I go through this little 'angry' stage.</p>
<p>PS- I'm not bipolar =)</p>
<p>I know exactly what you mean. My school is so small and I have all my classes with the same 15 people. After 3 years I have had enough of them. It's left me refreshing this site so much just because I have friends on here that are new and cool unlike the geeks I hang with all day. I have realized its toll on my education though. My grades are horribl and its my junior year!</p>
<p>The thing is, I have friends. But they're 700 miles away. :( I'm usually fine though...maybe it is the weather.</p>
<p>just the title alone is the story of my (recent) life. I know exactly how you feel; it's how I've been feeling for the past year. </p>
<p>I'm so sick of being stuck in my (somewhat) boring life in this little town, but I'm so afraid to leave it. I was all ready to apply to boarding school last year, but then when it actually came time to apply, I couldn't bear leaving this place. At the same time, I know how fortunate I am to have such a secure life in such a nice town, but the town does get boring, and so does the people. </p>
<p>But the emptiness and apathy is the accumulation of stress and emotional breakdown. I know that whenever I have that one person I can randomly call at 3 in the morning about nothing at all and just vent about my day, I feel a lot better. And I think we're twins or something, many of my closest friends live in MA or Long Island (I'm from Jersey) and sometimes I just don't get to talk with them much and I don't get to hang out with them at all. Maybe dedicate your spring break to visiting them. In the meantime, you could get a job to pay for the airfare and spend your free time talking with them on the phone and planning your week together (or just venting about life is good :)). </p>
<p>Seriously though, I'd blame it on stress.</p>
<p>I just realized how my post made so much sense and no sense at all. (I have no... flow of reasoning, everything just comes gushing out :))</p>
<p>Weather is getting better in California which is a good thing</p>
<p>^ um .. yea!
in norcal we've had perfect tanning/ swim weather for about a week now :)
the sun making a comeback is definitley good.</p>
<p>Yeah in jersey... last wednesday we had 70 something degree weather, and then thursday night a snow/icestorm came in. :)</p>
<p>I keep telling myself that the reason I work so hard for things like grades and trying to look good on paper to a college adcom is because that's my one way out. Once I'm in a place where there are many people my age willing to learn, there are bound to be some who I'll get along with extremely well, and forge lasting relationships with. Just because I haven't found my soulmate within the small small school I go to doesn't mean I'm socially incompetent or a horrible person.</p>
<p>I'm just in the wrong place at the wrong time. Out of context, and later it's my job to put myself in context.</p>
<p>I don't know if that'll help or if it's too optimistic. Your greatest and most meaningful moments (and relationships) are right around the corner. You just have to work now to be able to reach those moments later. </p>
<p>That being said, I've completely lost motivation for this quarter, and my grades are really reflecting that. : (</p>
<p>you guys are so emo. </p>
<p>only the conclusion left! haha.</p>
<p>Nice to know that there are other people who feel the same way I do. </p>
<p>Nowadays, I only do schoolwork to keep my grades up; I've become a zombie and looking at my future and what it possibly entails, I get even more depressed :(</p>
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<p>That's about the only thought that's keeping me going right now. I think I ended up in the wrong place at the wrong time for most of my high school years and now I just need to focus on finding a college where I'll meet people I can really connect with. Of course, then I need to get into said college.</p>
<p>Empty and apathetic? I though everyone was like that.... Whoops.</p>