<p>It just came to me right when I decided to take a nap even though I haven't studied for my midterm yet which is in about the next 6 hours.</p>
<p>I don't HAVE to do well in college. I don't need good grades to be happy. If anything I'm getting these good grades for my parents and if this semester I do poorly, whatever. No one dies, it's all good.</p>
<p>Now that I wrote it down it seems really stupid, cliche and obvious. But I REALLY get it now. I feel more relaxed than I have ever been the past couple years of my life.</p>
<p>Hopefully you'll be saying the same thing five years down the road when you're asking obnoxious teenagers if they want fries with that, and your feet hurt from standing all day, and your baby's mama is calling you every 5 minutes asking for last month's child support check, and when you go home at night you drink yourself to sleep with at night with a case of whiskey at your side because you can't afford cable and the only thing channel your TV gets is UPN and the Home Shopping Network, and you're eating cat food out of Purina cans because your checks bounced at the grocery store last weekend, and your bookie is banging on your door every morning asking "Where my money at???" and threatening to cut off your legs if you don't get it to him by Friday, and you're fighting with dirty hobos on the streets to collect Pepsi cans to redeem, etc.</p>