<p>Bear with me. This is four paragraphs long. I know long posts tend to drive people away, but here I go... And yes, this has been some form of a catharsis :/</p>
<p>So this has been boring itself into my mind over the past few days. I'm currently a Chem major. Weeks ago, I had considered doing Chem E, mostly for the application of math (and I had almost no clue what Chem E was :P). Then I had decided to pursue Chem Bio, believing that this combines my interests in bio, chem, and physics. I also planned to take allied courses that would involve math, which later turned out to be upper div physics courses (like Physics 105). I believed that I was passionate about chemistry, being excited about physical chem (even though it's allegedly really, really difficult... and looking back, thermodynamics/kinetics weren't my favorite parts of AP Chem) and Chem C191 over organic chem and inorganic chem (lack of math's one reason for the lack of excitement). And my justification was that I was good at chemistry (highlights: stoichiometry, equilibrium, bonding), having been a/the top student in my AP Chem class (along with many others in the CoC, of course), although looking back, I dunno about the chem labs. Some chem labs were memorable for their accidents/failures (such as a burn, broken glass, or a 96% percent error). That, and my lab group was usually the last to finish, even though I sometimes wanted to finish the lab up by the time the class was over. I realize that as I am writing this, this isn't a good harbinger, as labs are pretty integral to chemistry (that, or integral to one's undergrad experience in the CoC (duh)). I guess I'm more eager about the theory behind chemistry (particularly if math is involved). That, and I kind of looked forward to doing stuff (career-wise) with... physical chemistry (like catalysts or... protein folding...)...</p>
<p>These days, I'm considering doing a physics major instead. I've realized that the chemistry classes I was eager about the most were those mixed with physics. And let's not forget how I wanted to take physics upper div courses for my allied subjects. Couple that with a passion for (using/doing, rather than proving) math (at least, up to math 54 (or maybe even math 121ab)). And looking at the (surface of some of the) upper div physics courses, they're interesting (while I look at other chem upper div courses as requirements or as stuff I read and say, "Wow, I should be interested"). Right now, I'm looking through my dad's old college physics books about classical dynamics (which involves math I haven't learned yet and the material in phys 105 and much more) and plan to look through his quantum physics book. To be fair, I haven't read any books about chemistry yet... And it's also not fair that my physics background at home is stronger than that for chem due to my dad (who once wanted to study physics... and has all of those books). Then again, I'm not the best at physics.</p>
<p>Of course, by now, you're probably thinking, "The signs are FLASHING RIGHT IN FRONT OF YOU!!! GO WITH PHYSICS!!!" The problem? Well, let's assume I've decided to pursue physics and screw chem by taking a physics course in the fall, rather than chem 4a and c96. If I realize that my want to do physics was impulsive (seeing that this thought came recently) and that I want to do chem again, well... I'll be off the CoC chem major track, won't I? Then again, taking Math 53, Chem 4A, AND physics H7A (I have self-studied for the Physics C exams this year (better feelings for Mechanics than for E&M :P), and I have a feeling 7A may be repetitive... not to mention the challenge and the analytical thinking required of you in H7A kind of allures me) in the fall would be suicidal. And I'm not so eager about starting to fulfill lower div physics requirements in the spring, knowing that I actually could've started earlier. Is this inflexibility a characteristic of Cal?!?</p>
<p>Now, I'm not thinking about what I want to study based on how much money I want to make. Then again, I can't deny reality. There are people (such as my mom :/) who believe there will be more job opportunities if I pursue chem than if I pursue physics (and my mom believes that more and more physicists will be laid off/be unemployed... I personally doubt that...). Admittedly, there will be more job opportunities for those who've studied chemistry. Right now, however, I'm more interested in a career oriented in research/academia over industry (meaning I'm probably going to (try to) go to grad school), even though it's a long and rocky road to being a professor. Oh I dunno... I just try not to think about post-undergrad right now...</p>
<p>So yeah... I could use some help in this debate that's been going on in my head.</p>