<p>I understand the material but I get so anxious and overwhelmed whenever I do any of my assignments. My home situation isn't the best and I can never study at home without freaking out. I'm usually not allowed to leave the house (I'm homeschooled). Just recently, my mom told me that she would be disappointed in me if I don't go to community college and stay here to support my family until I get married. I don't want that at all. If I go to high school, I'd be graduating at age 20 and maybe I won't need a cosigner for loans if I just work for another year and then apply? I don't know. If I get my GED, I could work for the next two years and then move out to go to a community college in another state (I want to move out as soon as possible). What do you think? The colleges I want to go to have a 50-80% acceptance rate. Also, sorry for making so many threads, I'm just really nervous about the future and everything else. I want to succeed in life somehow...</p>
<p>Not sure if this helps but I either want to work as a costume designer or a chef (focused on candy making) in the future. So maybe college isn’t that necessary? I have no idea, I have no clue what’s going to happen in my life.</p>
<p>Do what you think is the absolute best decision.</p>
<p>how do you fail the 9th grade twice?</p>
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<p>I was homeschooled those two years and I had depression (and had to study at home). I got straight As in middle school though. I think I could do better again but I don’t want to be stuck here for four more years.</p>
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<p>Thanks for replying. I’m going to research some more.</p>
<p>Who is failing you from 9th grade? Is it your parents or do you have to take tests somewhere to be able to pass? It sounds like you’d be better off going to school since you did well in middle school. Is there an adult you trust that you could talk about this with? I suspect there are some issues going on with you parents that are having a negative impact on you. Maybe you could consider staying with another family member while going to high school.</p>
<p>It sounds like your problems stem mostly from the fact that your home life is awful. Your parents are home schooling you poorly–and they don’t usually let you leave the house at all? That’s very controlling. Since you did well in middle school, your best bet to succeed is probably to get back into a public school. In high school, you can also talk to a counselor about what you can do for college.</p>
<p>In a thread from August, in which you said you’d failed 9th grade once, you wrote:</p>
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<p>So something is not adding up in your story.</p>
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<p>I went to school for a while but then I got too nervous after a week (since I didn’t get along with my science teacher and felt like it would contribute to me failing again). I’m doing virtual school right now and I’ve failed my classes.</p>
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<p>I did virtual school for the past two school years and got failing grades. I also have to take tests at the end of each school year. Yeah, I think so too. Though I’m not sure if I could stick with it because I get anxious. I don’t think so and probably. Maybe I should try to avoid interacting with my parents? I’m getting a part time job in February/March next year so if I do end up trying as much as I can to get good grades in school, I might not have enough time to interact with my parents. </p>
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<p>My dad doesn’t notice but my mom doesn’t trust me to go out by myself (to either the library or the park) because she thinks I’ll do drugs or date. I think so too. Though I’m still playing around with getting a GED. But I also feel like I’d always regret not finishing high school (when I was 14, I was very excited about extracurriculars and being a teenager).</p>
<p>You aren’t really making a lot of sense. So the first time you took 9th grade you were in public school for around a week, then switched to homeschooling and failed? Then you continued to try homeschooling and failed again? You also said when you were in public school you were worried about failing again, but you said you did fine in middle school. So I hope you understand why this is confusing.</p>
<p>If you’ve never really tried public high school, then I would recommend trying it now. Homeschooling obviously isn’t working, and public high school have counselors you can talk to about your problems at home and your future.</p>
<p>She thinks going to the library will lead to dating or drugs? That’s an unusual thought process.</p>
<p>My experiences at the local library near where I live have brought me books, dvds, community service, and my first paid job. Dating and drugs are two things I have yet to experience, and I have never seen people engaged in such activities at the library.</p>
<p>Unless you library is REALLY different, I suppose…</p>
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<p>I started both years of 9th grade in public high school but this year (in late August), I was worried about failing again. It’s very odd.</p>
<p>Maybe, I’m thinking about it now. </p>
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<p>She thinks I won’t actually go to the library or park, but go meet up with other people. I have no clue why she thinks that because I’m a recluse lol. Yeah my library’s the same. I usually just read there or use the computer to look up how to guides for math.</p>
<p>How long did you stay in public school each year, and were you failing in public school too? What made you switch to homeschooling both years?</p>
<p>“I’m usually not allowed to leave the house.”</p>
<p>“my mom told me that she would be disappointed in me if I don’t go to community college and stay here to support my family until I get married.”</p>
<p>"my mom doesn’t trust me to go out by myself (to either the library or the park) because she thinks I’ll do drugs or date. I think so too. "</p>
<p>I hope you aren’t so sheltered that you think any of this is normal. It seems a little creepy to me. I think you need to see a doctor for your depression/anxiety. I think you need counseling and evaluation for some medication. And you need to get out of that house and into a high school where you can have a social life and spend most of your day with normal people who aren’t trying to control everything you do. That in itself might go a long way toward solving your problems. Don’t let your parents lock you in the house. Find a trusted adult who is local to help you with your situation. I don’t really know the best person to handle this, but if you have a psychiatrist or psychologist (you should) you could ask them how you could get help. </p>
<p>Why do you think you would get into so much trouble just going to the library? Nothing you’ve said here has indicated that. Unless there is an awful lot you’ve left out of your story, it seems that you’ve been indoctrinated by someone who evidently has serious problems of their own.</p>
<p>Maybe you should also call the counselor you used to have at your high school and tell your story. You need someone to help you with your current educational situation. You also need some advice on what sort of education you will need for the careers you are considering.</p>
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<p>Two or three weeks my first year and a week my second year, and I wasn’t failing. I had As and Bs my first year in 9th grade (I was in the IB program), and in my second year in 9th grade, I got all As (I had regular classes because of my failing grades). Anxiety made me switch both years. During my first year of 9th grade, I was anxious regarding people and had some sort of social anxiety. While during my second year of 9th grade, I was anxious about failing again.</p>
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<p>It seriously freaks me out. When I was younger, I thought all parents did this but around two years ago, I started to realize that my mom was a really weird and bad parent. It’s the reason I want to move out as soon as possible. I’m not sure, my parents will find out somehow and make it all about them. Though yeah, I think high school would be best. I can’t study for a GED properly in this house because I don’t have a consistent study schedule. I was replying “I think so too” towards something else (probably towards “That’s very controlling”). </p>
<p>Yeah, I can’t talk to the person who’s in charge of careers at my local high school, because she’s good friends with my mom, and will probably talk to her about it. But I can talk to the 9th grade counselor. Yeah, definitely.</p>
<p>Honestly, I’m probably one of those people who were born to lose in life. I want to go to high school and college but I won’t ever be able to pass anything because I won’t be able to study. I’m just going to drop out of high school, get a minimum wage job, and do that my whole life. Maybe I’ll be able to move out once I’m 18. I shouldn’t even have dreams with the life I have because survival should be first priority. I’m not posting this to get pity, I’m just being realistic.</p>
<p>Okay I posted that when I was angry at my mom for not letting me go to the park to study. I asked her about high school and she said I could go to the same school as a friend (that I actually like) because she’s friends with her mom. Her mom picks her up at 6 every day because of an after school program so I have time to participate in extracurriculars and do homework. I can try to study early in the morning and finish the rest (and triple-check). On weekends and breaks, starting in mid/late February, I’ll work at my local grocery store when I can. So I won’t be spending much time with my parents. I’m allowed to start school in January. I will definitely stick with it because the past two years have sucked (but I’m glad I’ve had the experience, otherwise my life would have been somewhat boring). Though I’ll try to overcome my anxiety too so I won’t change my mind. Can anyone give me tips please? Also, thank you all for replying.</p>
<p>Apparently, I didn’t fail at all (though I have to repeat a few classes). I’m also not going to the same school as my friend, I’m going to the same school I went the years before.</p>