<p>This year my grades are better than ever and I am much more involved in school activities.</p>
<p>I have already been accepted into a couple of fantastic schools, but I am starting to think about the end of senior year and what it'll mean to me.</p>
<p>I'm really not happy with where I am. I have a nice group of friends that I hang out with on weekends and whom I enjoy spending time with. But I feel like I'm missing something. I'm lethargic all the time and I don't really know what to do. I have no motivation at all to do schoolwork anymore, but I really don't think it's like "happy-go lucky senioritis woohoo." I mean, I'm not intentionally not doing my work anymore, I just really don't want to deal with high school anymore.</p>
<p>I think this really stems from my relationship with one of my ex-girlfriends. She and I broke up because she didn't love me, and I know that no one else in my school could measure up to her. I still love her (it's been over a year, and since the breakup we've maintained an uneasy friendship), and that fact, along with the slim-pickings of my school mean that I will not have another significant other while in high school. I might seem pathetic because I don't want to seem like I am unhappy just because I don't have a relationship. I don't really have anyone to talk to about any of this. I have a superficial relationship with my parents, and I don't really talk to my friends about this sort of thing. </p>
<p>I think the best thing to do is to find a way to distract myself. I only really see my friends outside of school on weekends, so I need something to do on weekdays. During the fall I could hide behind my school's band rehearsals, but now I really have nothing to do anymore. I really don't want to spend the rest of my senior year feeling like this.</p>
<p>Thanks for reading, I appreciate any insight or advice given.</p>