<p>that's the point i've reached. i could care less about seeing/hearing the symphonic bulldog; i just don't want to "let everyone down." </p>
<p>[/exasperated sigh]</p>
<p>Yeah. Yale isn't even actually my first choice anymore.
But my dad is going to be really sad if I don't get in. :/</p>
<p>Yale is still my first choice, but I've come to accept the fact that there most likely won't be a singing bulldog waiting for me tomorrow. On the other hand, my friends and other group of acquantances (spelling, woah) (teachers, former teachers, etc). are all waiting on monday night, and I'm really not excited to break bad news to them.</p>
<p>I kind of feel like that too. I tried to keep my college business on the down low, but teachers or friends always asked me. Many times I tried to keep my mouth shut, but some I ended up telling anyway. My dance teacher outright said it to a packed auditorium after she had me read my dance essay >.< lol. </p>
<p>I mostly want to make my mom proud. When we immigrated to America, she left behind a big business career to come here, and now she works at a post office. I want to show her that the decision to move here wasn't in vain.</p>
<p>My mom said to me tonight( I'm in China)' just forget about the whole thing, you are set for everything, and the matter is whether you make it clear what you want.' I have to admit that the whole thing is making me lost, so now I think I'd rather not go to Yale...for the right place may not come until next April</p>
<p>The thing that bothers me most is that everyone seems to <em>expect</em> that I'll get in, no matter how much I explain the unlikelihood of acceptance and the amazingness of the applicant pool. A lot of people don't really understand how college admissions have changed over the past few decades; they seem to think that just a 2300+ and 4.0 can still do it. It's going to make it all the harder to break it to them when I don't make it.</p>
<p>^ Exactly.</p>
<p>^ exactly. the expectations are eating me alive. i'm not the personality type to get stressed out about these sorts of things-- but all the external pressures, all the "why are you worrying?! you're a genius"--i'd feel terrible delivering bad news. </p>
<p>and if you tell them your chances are slim, that just reeks of false modesty.</p>
<p>Wink said it pretty well.</p>
<p>It's especially difficult trying to explain that legacy status doesn't have anywhere near the meaning it once had, especially at Yale (compared to Harvard, Princeton, Upenn, etc.).</p>
<p>^^^ omg seriously. ppl are like "oh you'll get in" and i can't decide if they are kidding just to make me feel better, or if they think that I am kidding when I say that the chances of me getting in are ridiculously low.</p>
<p>If everyone was just like "yeah u'll be rejected" i'd probably think "well, u guys are mean-faces" and calmly await monday. but i guess that's not how it's gonna be.</p>
<p>That's why I'm glad Yale's the last one to report...now that everyone else has been deferred/rejected, it won't be a big deal if I don't get in.</p>
<p>^Yeah, when my friend was rejected--not deferred--rejected from Stanford, I first felt terrible for him. He is an amazing kid, and the Admissions Office definitely made a mistake. </p>
<p>But fifteen minutes later, I actually felt a pang of relief. Now if I get rejected/deferred it won't be so bad.</p>
<p>Stick up for yourself, seriously.</p>
<p>So far, one of my friends got into Brown ED, two girls from my school got into Penn ED, and all of my other friends either haven't heard yet or got deferred. No one has been outright rejected. That kind of puts the pressure on. One of my teachers who is basically my favorite person alive is convinced that I am going to get in and keeps reminding me to let him know as soon as I hear. That will make reporting my rejection all the more painful.</p>
<p>Guys, don't be so pessimistic! You're all assuming that you are already rejected. Haven't you ever watched/read The Secret!? lol</p>
<p>i have not told anyone in my class that i applied to yale. everyone knows that i applied early 'somewhere' but only a few teachers and one or two very close friends from outside of school know. People think i don't talk about it because i don't want to jinx it, but really i just don't want to hear, "Oh, so... Yale- huh?" or "Don't worry, Yale's not the only good school". Instead i get the reaction, " Well whatever school it is, you'll get in." People dismiss me when i tell them i have a 92% chance of NOT getting in. It's soooo frustrating. I don't know why they are so foolish- I'm sure most of us are qualified, even overqualified! but most of us will not get into Yale. Anyway- I'm glad to know that all of you are going through the same thing. Good luck everyone!</p>
<p>I think the fear of disappointing myself trumps everything else. I've been building up to this moment (getting admitted to college) for 10 months. I havent even taken the time to fully consider what would happen if (God forbid) I didnt get in to Yale. For almost a year I've developed this strange, almost psychic-like connection to the school--- as if i were just meant to be there. And usually my initial, gut-feelings about things are usually right. I wish I could just fast-forward to Monday 5:00 pm!!!</p>
<p>Welcome to the club, Vicky, you're one of about 5000. </p>
<p>That's what's special about the way Yale markets itself - the school KNOWS how to get its applicants to feel a special pyschic connection to the school. My parents were crying when we finished the tour - that bit about going in through phelps gate, and exitting through the same gate to take on the world... (And they hardly ever, ever cry.) </p>
<p>When you spend the night their, the whole dorm room friends you on facebook and stays in touch with you if you want them to... and you play xbox with in Calhoun and you feel as if a part of you just remains in New Haven. </p>
<p>Yale wants it to be that way - they set everything up to make you feel as if you are a part of Yale, when youre really not even close at all. Yale calculatedly has ways to establish that connection. Yale gives you the illusion that wanting it more than anyone else means something.</p>
<p>Everyone in my school knows I'm applying to Yale early, and I'm the only one who is. Damn the spotlight - I just couldn't keep my mouth shut when people keep on asking me 'hey you applying early anywhere'</p>
<p>My problem was that other people couldn't keep their mouths shut.
Wink's description was fairly accurate.</p>