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<p>Sure you can talk the talk but can you walk the walk? This is a question I ask myself all the time. Ive never really been the courageous one, sure Im outgoing and friendly, but when it comes down to asking who wants to go skiing on Mt. Everest count me out. For some inexplicable reason Ive grown up as an extremely paranoid person, maybe its was all the horror movies I watched as a child, or maybe its all the horrible events I hear on the news whatever the reason was its changed my life and not for the better. When I was younger and I was left alone in the house I wasnt afraid of somebody coming in and killing me, but as I grew older every small creak was the footstep of an axe murderer ready to slice my head off. Its funny really because Im the girl whos all talk. I say that I could survive a horror movie and outsmart Freddy Kruger and Jason Voorhees yet Im afraid to go downstairs at night. Sometimes Im nothing but a coward but at the same time I feel as though Im the bravest woman in the world. Im a believer and a daydreamer and I believe in the saying nothing is impossible, of course the person who said this has obviously never tried to slam a revolving door, I havent tried yet but Im sure I could do it. Im not one to give up and if I let fear rule my life where would I be? Being in a family like mine with international parents and younger siblings, I didnt get to experience most of the things my friends did. While everyone went to go see that new action flick I got stuck watching Epic while my friends talked about how awesome Looper was. When it came down to amusement parks we spent most of our time in the kiddy section, however on these occasions I didnt particularly mind. One particular experience taught me that just because youre scared doesnt mean you cant be brave. During the summer we tend not to go out much, not because we dont want but because we cant afford to, so when my friend offered me a chance to go Six Flags Magic Mountain with her and two of our other friends I jumped at the chance. I had never been to Six Flags before so I was caught completely off guard. Sure I knew it was all roller coasters and it was the suppose thrill capital of the world but how bad could it be? With my mother warning me not to go on any of the high rides which was a moot point since they were all high, and listening to all the accidents that happened over there I was freaking out. I started thinking that I could have a heart attack and die while everyone else would keep on riding. So it didnt actually make me feel better when the first ride they wanted to go on was X2. The ride where youre basically sitting in nothing but a car seat dangling 500 ft. in the air sounds like fun. I had told myself that I wasnt going to be the friend that ruined the trip for everyone so ignoring all the inner crying I was doing in my head I faked a smile and went on the ride. Spins, twists, drops, and loops and only 5 seconds in I was waiting for it to be over, it didnt help me feel better when my friend told me I sound like Im being possessed by a demon. When the ride ended I could have kissed the ground in relief, I told myself that I wasnt going on another rollercoaster ever again and then it hit me. I had ridden the X2 supposedly one of the worst coasters in the park and it wasnt that bad. If I could do that I could do anything. Well almost anything there were still a few rides that I would not go on despite all the begging and pleading I got from my friends, like Tatsu, what kind of name is Tatsu anyway, like Im one to talk, I was imagining all sorts of horrible loops and drops for that ride, when I saw the ride I was completely right about my presumptions so I guess sometimes you can judge a book by its cover. Going on X2 is something that makes me proud to be me, I was scared and I did it anyway. It helps define who I am. Im the girl with the weird name whos always willing to try new things no matter how terrified I am and trust me I always do things that Im scared to do regardless of the consequences. I dont let life stop me and when life tells me that its too hard and that I should give up I tell life to wish me good luck. Im more of an act now think later person and if I wasnt such a risk taker I dont think Id be here today. Of course Id still be here but my life would be so much simpler and I couldnt have that being as energetic and spontaneous as I am. Im proud to be Esme Dream and that experience makes me even prouder because it proves when push comes to shove Ill shove back harder and that sometimes you have to ignore logic and just go with the flow. Being such an impulsive person and just going for it despite the fact that Im scared out of mind or thinking about the consequences and all the ways whatever Im doing may backfire is what makes me who I am and I wouldnt want to change for all the money in the world. Okay so maybe Id change a little bit wouldnt you its all the money in the world.</p>