<p>I'm taking five classes this semester, and I'm already feeling worn out. I guess the luster of it has faded, and I'm not as optimistic as I had been before. Why? I'm a stutterer, so it's hard to make friends. It's hard to communicate, especially for asking for help from my peers when I have to. I feel mute and silenced. The classes are somewhat hard to keep up with since some of the teachers expect so much, much more than I thought. I would think community college teachers would be a lot more lenient with grading and with expectations of students, but that's not how it is.</p>
<p>My grades could be a lot better, and I'm feeling discouraged about my chances of making it to the school I want to transfer to. I made some bad decisions. For instance, I chose to continue on with being graded with a letter grade in classes that are taken merely as prerequisites when I should have chosen the pass-fail option instead. I mean, one of those classes is really just an introductory chemistry course. I also made the horrible decision of registering for an introductory chemistry class when the teacher wasn't even listed, so I couldn't look the teacher up on RateMyProfessor.com before signing up for that class.</p>
<p>My dream job was to become a pharmacist. I'm not even good with chemistry lab work, so I don't know how I'll get there. I'm worried about my future, and I realized I might not be as happy in my college years as I'd like to be.</p>
<p>Today I just started looking back at my trip to Vietnam this past summer. It was my very first time there, and I loved it so much. I felt so happy and blissful there. Now, I'm stuck here, and it's so upsetting to just look at the happier days, including those of my childhood, in retrospect.</p>
<p>it sounds like YOU belong back in vietnam with your family. will they accept you back or would that be considered a retrogression - out of all of them you got the opportunity to succeed in america, and you failed. all their pride and hopes in you, their grandchild who lives in “america”, and then you let them down. well just tell them america isn’t all its cracked up to be,that your family has way more happiness than what you see in this country, so you want to be with them. maybe they will sympathize. even if you don’t disgrace the family though there is the downside of never being able to make enough money to travel the world if you live in vietnam… but maybe traveling isn’t all its cracked up to be either.</p>
<p>I got that way getting caught up my first year in community college wanting to transfer to UCLA. </p>
<p>I went in with the intention of becoming a pharmacist. Don’t do pharmacy if you’re not good at chemistry or you’re not willing to work really hard at it. I had terrible chemistry teachers, but we have to get through it somehow. I decided pharmacy was not for me.</p>
<p>I think there is a policy where P/NP is not accepted at universities that you might want to transfer to. You have to look into it. You SHOULD always take your classes for a letter grade. </p>
<p>I’m sorry you stutter, but join some activities, clubs, etc. It sucks, I had some social problems that I had to fix when I was in community college, but it worked out. I don’t think your community college teachers are supposed to be more lenient. You need to be prepared for the rigorous coursework of a four year university. I did not feel fully prepared my first quarter after I transferred, but I am now. You’re going to have to make a jump when you hit a four year university and the smaller it is the easier it will be to adjust. </p>
<p>Try to stay afloat and think of your future. Try to make some friends in your classes.</p>