<p>Hello Everyone,</p>
<p>I am currently facing a big dilemma in terms of the job search process and would like the advice from more mature people. Which is why I am here! I am an undergraduate students at a Big 10 school, wrapping up my degree in chemical engineering this semester. This summer, I had the fortune of having an engineering internship with one of the best companies to work for. And I can say that because I have done three prior internships with different companies who didn't nearly treat me as well. I won't mention this company's name, but they are an enormous CPG company - Company A.</p>
<p>Now, my experience with Company A was nothing but positive in terms of how I was treated, the amount of employee development available, the people I worked with, etc. In short, the company's work atmosphere exceeded my expectations. However, in terms of my job? I was somewhat satisfied with it, until recently. I was given a lot of responsibility in terms of the amount of money I was asked to manage for my projects (multimillion dollar projects), and I loved that. My biggest problem though, is that I didn't get to do a lot of engineering - that was reserved exclusively for the contractors I hired. I had to take the initiative to start my own projects that involved putting to use my engineering skills, which is how I got some engineering experience.</p>
<p>Company A offered me a full time job at the end of the summer internship. There were a couple of things that made me sign the offer:</p>
<p>1) I had no other job, and was worried about not finding a job later on.
2) I was only given a couple of days to sign, while other interns were given 3 months. So I felt pressure to sign.</p>
<p>I was unsure if that was the right move for me. Now, in talking to many people from the company I have been told that the position may have the word 'engineer' in the title, but that isn't what I would be doing. I would just be managing things (people, budgets, etc.). The engineering would not be done by me. Instead it would be outsourced to contractors. They also told me that I would have to realize that my chemical engineering background would be lost.</p>
<p>It breaks my heart to be honest with you, because I don't want to lose that knowledge. I came to school to study this because I love it. I about to obtain such a difficult degree, and I want to put it to use! I would hate to wake up one day, only to realize that I don't love my job, that I am not finding my job fulfilling because I am not a chemical engineer as I have always wanted to be.</p>
<p>The problem now is, I have been contacted by numerous companies to interview with them. I am not sure what to do, especially if I were to get an offer from them. I talked to my career advisors here, but they don't give me all that much guidance saying "It's your call, but realize that they may never come back to my school to recruit" (Company A does not even recruit at my school anymore anyways). My other advisors here have told me to do what is best for me and my career goals. Some people who are in the company have also told me the same thing - "Do you want to make the company happy or do you want to be happy doing what you love?"</p>
<p>However, I am worried about the consequences of reneging on this job offer. Some things I have read online about reneging on a job offer always say, "It's a small world", and this is what worries me the most. I am not a person who backs away from promises. But, then again this is my life I am talking about. I want to do what is best for me. I want to position myself in a way that will prepare me to do great things in life, and that will give me a fulfilling life overall. I always had a dream of designing and building plants, starting them up, and watching my work come to life. And with Company A, I will not have that. I will be nothing but a project manager. I know this company has invested so much in me, has treated me really well, and has spent time developing me which makes me feel really guilty for even considering other options.</p>
<p>See, this is keeping me at night. I am lucky enough to get 3 hours of sleep at night. I just don't know what to do! I feel like Company A may try to do something to me to tarnish my reputation and my career. Which leaves me feeling trapped, and very very worried about the consequences. But I feel that by leaving now, they can find another person who will be happy as a project manager and can perform the job competently without being unsatisfied with it. They would avoid me leaving in 2 years after investing a lot of money on me (relocation bonus, sign on bonus, other bonuses, etc.). Which would be a good thing, higher return on investment for them. I just am too scared of the consequences, and this is where I would like more guidance from you folks. The companies speaking with me are in a completely different industry, just thought I should mention that. What would you suggest?</p>