It is NOT hopeless. You have options. You have good grades and test scores and they really really do give you options that many do not have. PLEASE please consider calling a suicide hotline. T1.800.273.8255. there are free resources for you and shelters if you need to get out of the house, perhaps friends or family or church you can stay at.
If you are at the 97th percent, you should recieve a full tuition award from North Dakota (or any school in the state).
PLEASE call the financial aid office at North Dakota tomorrow. Find out if the full tuition award is stackable with the other state awards. It does not say they cannot be combined. They will help you. State schools want state kids and they want high stats state kids, that’s what the money is for. Apply for the academic scholarship listed
You have the potential to qualify for
North Dakota Scholars Program $8137
University Scholarship -$2,500
North Dakota Academic Scholarships $1500 this you NEED TO APPLY for.
https://www.nd.gov/dpi/uploads/204/directions.pdf
North Dakota State Student Incentive Grant Program - $1950 as long as you listed your ND HS on your FAFSA you should qualify for this one.
These, combined with the federal student loan available, if they can be combined would more than cover your full cost of attendance regardless of whether the FAFSA appeal goes through. I know it’s not your top choice, many many kids cannot go to their top choice because their parents cannot afford it, but you have a very very solid chance at being able to attend. It is a better option than many kids will have.
Even if they cannot be combined, you should be able to get the full tuition offer based on the published information and your full federal loan. That would leave you short about 3K for the year. Talk to the office about work study and on campus employment, you may well be able to cover that with an on campus job.