so, i’m in a bit of a dilemma.
i guess i’m the classic resentful younger sibling. i’ve always hated being referred to as “_____’s little sister”, so i made a point of becoming everything my sister isn’t. we are only 17 months apart (2 grades apart), so we are pretty close in age. she’s a sophomore in college and i’m a senior in high school, nearing the end of my college search. i applied to the school my sister goes to, due to force from her and my parents. i got in, and also got accepted to the honors college and got a pretty high scholarship (i got way more money than she got, which she wasn’t happy about).
i love my sister, i really do. she’s my best friend. but, she has a nasty superiority complex. if i receive an award she never got, or outperform her in a certain area, she’ll make some nasty comment. she thinks she’s a lot smarter than me. yet, she really really wants me to go to her college.
i have no interest in going to school with her. granted, it’s a large school (about 30,000 students) but i don’t want to seem like i’m following her to her school. i want to carve my own path in my own life, and i don’t always want to be compared to her. if she happens to get a higher GPA or make the deans list and i don’t, i know i’ll never hear the end of it. we are completely different people, but everyone seems to think i should idolize her and aspire to be just like her.
another thing: the school she goes is in-state, and only one hour away. the school i want to go to is 8 hours away. my sister had a rough freshman year, and was always coming home on the weekends, which was easy due to the close drive. my parents are convinced that i’ll be as needy as she was and that i’ll have no way to come home. however, i am extremely independent. i know i’ll be just fine being on my own, but because my sister was always coming home on the weekends, my parents keep assuming i’ll be just like her. however, like i said, i pride myself on the fact that i am nothing like her, but no one seems to understand that. i’m always being viewed as “_____’s little sister” and people, my parents included, assume my freshman year should be just like hers, down to the school she went to. i’ve been compared to her from kindergarten to senior year. she’s gotten to carve her own path since she’s the oldest, and college is a time to fully express yourself, but no one seems to want me too.
btw: it’s not about the money. my parents are able to afford to send me wherever i want (which i am very grateful for).
TLDR: family is practically forcing me to go to my older sister’s college, but i want to go to any school but that.