<p>I would like to write this apology for my thread.</p>
<p>I’m sorry.</p>
<p>I’m sorry for the way I have represented myself and my peers who have also received financial aid for college. I’m truly sorry that my mindless writing, which has escalated to a level I would have never foreseen, has seriously affected the faith some people have in financial aid. It was never my wish to become such a despicable person. Contrary to what you might perceive from this thread, I am really, really, really grateful for the help I have been given. Please do not misunderstand that I only say that to argue. It is really the truth. I am not eloquent so I’m afraid I cannot convey to you the feelings and the hope I experienced when I found the Questbridge program while searching for scholarships in ninth grade. Without knowing about FA, I would not have aimed to get into selective colleges, and I wouldn’t have done many things that I did during high school. I wouldn’t have grown so much academically during hs. Without this generous system, a plethora of students would have graduate college with tens of thousands of loan. After I finished reading Falco’s post, I feel extremely guilty and so very remorseful that it is me who have given a bad name to the system that has helped and will help me and many, many, many students.</p>
<p>Please let me clarify a few things.</p>
<p>When I was writing this thread, it was not my intention at all to “deride” Harvard like some people have said that I was. I have well regards for Harvard; that’s why I have spent much time in my application so that I could get in. Truly, I consider Harvard one of the very best schools in the University and I greatly appreciate their generous aid system. I feel extremely lucky and fortunate that I got into such a great institution. I was honestly expecting a rejection. I am very aware of the fortune I have given, and the opportunities and open-doors Harvard would grant me during college and post-college if I choose to attend. I don’t really believe what I said about the dishes (in fact, I copied it from another thread I have read before) and, even though I didn’t say this, I am prepared to work when the situation really comes down to it. I am not that stupid to be so princessy. I overcame many challenges, and have done many things I hate before too. If outside scholarships are enough to cover this portion, then it would be great; if not, of course I will work.</p>
<p>I want to clarify that because I don’t want people to misconceive FA students to be these hates-work yay-free-ride students who feel entitled to all these money. It reallly pains me that I am responsible for this. What I have written in the first post is just like I have previously mentioned, mindless. I deeply apologize for it again and I hope that you believe the me who have written such post is an extremely rare exception. I am sure that all kids are very grateful for the generosity H has displayed. I was just crazy and I can’t tell you what devil made me make such a thread; I don’t even know myself. My initial post was just careless, without much thought, stupid, and not characteristic of the usual me or any FA student. After 2-3 responses, I was already regretting my opening my stupid mouth without much thought; this incident once again reinforces this Cambodian saying my mom often tells me that is something like “Thrice thoughts before speaking” (I’m not good at translating). I read every single reply, every word, and I will keep all of them in mind.</p>
<p>I have gained a valuable life lesson, insightful perspectives, good advice, and some good reprimanding (some of which I think is a bit harsh but probably is well-deserved for the behavior I have displayed). This thread has brought much stress to me and deprived me of sleep, worrying whether someone can identify me and I am forever branded with the stupidity and ignorance displayed here. But I have grown. I know how fortunate I am, “winning a lottery” as someone has put it. I am not entitled at all in real life even though this thread may suggest that. I am grateful about the sponsor programs for students without the means to visit campuses because without them many other and I would have to make a decision without ever being on the campus. I also greatly appreciate other financial help I have given. I truly really value all of this. Other admits do too (please remember again that they’re not like the me who was writing the initial post; even the usual me is not like this). I am sorry that this program is also given a bad name even though it’s such a great and much needed (in my opinion) program because it’s affiliated to me. I hope that it’s not because of me that this program is suddenly shut down. My conscience would not bear it.</p>
<p>I have revealed too much of my personal information that it is entirely possible for someone I know to identify me. It has now become my worst nightmare if a Harvard adcom or FA officer lurks AP and comes across this thread. The words I have written here do not represent the usual me well at all. I feel so bad for the damage I have caused and I truly regret this so much. I hope that you will forgive my action and continue to believe the FA system.</p>
<p>tl;dr: I’m sorry.</p>
<p>I sincerely request that people stop replying to me and bumping this thread up. I have already acknowledge my error many times, so please, I have read enough reprimanding, however much you might think I deserve. It fears me so much that my in-the-moment stupid words will become one of the most read on CC. If you really want to say something to me, please PM me instead.</p>