Hi. I am about to enter my last semester in college before graduation in a couple of weeks. It’s been 4 and half years since I enrolled in college. I’m a commuter student who attends a branch campus of a large well known university. I can genuinely say that I have despised every moment I have spent in college. I have always earned high grades and have received A’s in most of my classes. However, I never actually learned anything and can truly say it seems to have been a waste of time. Additionally, I have attempted to join clubs and enroll in extra-curricular activities but none of them held my interest. Also, much to my chagrin, I have failed to make any friends during my tenure in college. The few friends I still have are those that I have known since high school. I had a great time in high school but college has just been terrible. I have been growing increasingly depressed since I graduated high school and began college that I now find it difficult to even get out of bed. I watch my peers enjoying college, making memories, and looking forward to the future while I have been miserable, lonely, sickly, and depressed. Furthermore, I fear for my future when I graduate in a few months. I have no idea what I am going to do post graduation. The last time I was truly happy was during my high school years. Has anyone else had similar problems or felt this way.
“I’m a commuter student who attends a branch campus”
I am not surprised that you would hate college for this very reason.
@OhSorryYo I’m a commuter student at a predominantly commuter public school and I love college; a lot of one’s college experience is dependent on perspective and what you put into it. (Though I know what you said was mostly in jest.)
To the OP - stop comparing your experience to the curated reel presented by your peers. Nobody instagrams photos of Top Ramen and Diet Coke dinners. Social media is an extremely toxic metric to use. College isn’t and SHOULDN’T be the best four years of your life (how screwed up would that be? Downhill after 22? Bleh.)
Reflect on what you could’ve done to make more positive social engagements and employ them as you move forward in your life.
As for your fears for the future, you aren’t alone. Very few people have it all figured out in their early twenties.
If you genuinely believe you are growing more and more depressed, reach out to someone. You shouldn’t have to go through it alone. Get the help you need.
I wish you the best.