<p>I am sorry that you had such a disappointing freshman year. </p>
<p>You need to get a handle on your personal issues BEFORE you attempt college again. It’s time to seek professional counseling so you can understand why you keep sabotaging yourself and stop doing it. You need more help than you will find on a message board. </p>
<p>Please get counseling. </p>
<p>Your college’s student health center will have list of local counselors, or if you’re back at home, you can check for names of licensed counselors at the [state name] Board of Psychology/Clinical Psychology. If you cannot afford a private counselor or your insurance does not cover mental health care, then the nearest teaching university which offers a PsyD program will have low cost clinics where you will interact with a counseling student-in-training.</p>